cos His mercies are new every morning

2008-12-02T00:56:00.002+11:00

IT'S THE HOLS!

so, exams are overrr and i am now fancy free! (:
and yes, i've been playing like anything hehe :D

ah, the freedom to be free!

haha i love it - like now, im watching FRIENDS, and chatting, facebooking! the beauty of multi-tasking.
my family is currently holidaying somwhere in m'sia. these hols are gonna be packed - my mum just gave me my schedule for the rest of dec when i get back to sg. haha evidently, my dec is gonna be devoted for family time! cool beans (: which actually works out alright cos my siblings start in jan, whereas all the jc ppl have a massively long 8month break.

aiyo, i miss my family la

"how come u coming back so late? :("
the one sentence that can make me reconsider changing flight plans, and rescheduling my entire holiday plans

"mummy is now making me wash my face with the cream thingy, she says u and er jie do not, haha"
"like having the time of her life buying all this props that she can use to teach in church" (telling me how my parents' Israel holiday is going)

hehe my siblings are adorable (:

one she makes me feel not

too much like anything but

three times more than i've ever felt before

1am and im

too sucked in cos it's

three days later i cant stop thinking about you

anyway, it's rather late and i am sleepy
im gonna crash now!

<3

2008-11-25T13:02:00.003+11:00

so it's 3 down 1 to go!

& i am so over of studying. haha thank God for the weekend, really
give me a break from the 4 walls of Frank Tate (albeit interesting, cooped up everyday in the same building is bound to turn anyone slightly bored)

so anyway i am once again at 'the Tate', as we have dubbed it, and tired of typing about samples, observational test and randomised controlled trials. so i shall entertain the tag of the meme on jon's blog -

my top 5 favourite foods
1) home-cooked food!! i miss your food mummy (:
2) steak/lamb that's cooked properly
3) japanese food
4) bubble tea/boost juice/nutrient water/latte
5) honey tiny teddies/subway cookies

10 things i love doing
1) chilling with God
2) hanging out with friends/family
3) guitar/drums/keys/jam session, figuring out new songs
4) movies!
5) walking around (melbourne) with absolutely nowhere to go and nothing to do (with my ipod in my ears)
6) lazy days and waking up late
7) discovering cool, quaint cafes
8) long drives
9) checking out bands/the music scene
10) chilling at the beach or on a big grassy lawn

things i love doing when im emo
- whinging to God heh He always makes me feel better
- guitar/keys/drums (drums only when im angsty/frustrated though haha)
- reading
- sleeping
- running (surprisingly heh, but only sometimes)

5 things i love doing when im happy
1) putting a nice song on and just kicking back (:
2) figuring out stuff on my guitar
3) chilling at a cafe somwhere - either with someone, or with a book
4) strolling someplace interesting, checking out the scenery/life/people
5) just being at home with my family <3>

5 things i wish to happen
1) improve in my musical skills
2) do well in BA (heh which means stop procrastinating and being lazy..)
3) be more sociable heh
4) go skiing again sometime
5) go on a family holiday SOON haha

my top 5 most addicted songs
1) better with you - five times august
2) love love love - tristan prettyman
3) i'm yours - jason mraz
4) learning to breathe - switchfoot
5) shake it - metro station (hahaha yes, currently i am addicted to this catchy semi-techno beat)

brain-racking.

now 5 people to tag - joey poey! (: and any others who wanna do it haha

alright back to studyingggg

2008-11-17T08:15:00.002+11:00

my God He made a way
my God He saved the day
forever
we will shout Your praise
this world will fade away
but Your word remains
forever, Jesus
we will shout Your praise

because You are in control

and before everything, i commit it all to You
cos it's all for You anyway
and i know You are faithful, and You hold me in Your hands

(:

bring it on, i'm ready.

2008-11-13T17:38:00.003+11:00

I HAVE FINALLY FINISHED STUDYING PSYCH.
thank You Jesus.
the past week has felt like a month!
intensive psych-ing man

okay now to attempt to start on global pol.

im gonna be mugger-extroadinaire for the next 2 weeks. oh whaddaya know, it's exactly 2 weeks till the end of my exams.

every step i take
i take in You
You are my way, Jesus
every breath i take
i breathe in You

hehe i love this song! got it from sanne :D used to be my favourite action song when i was a kiddd. in BMC children's ministry (:
sometimes, the simplest kids songs are the most faith-filled declarations

Your love has captured me

oh my God, this love, how can it be?

okay i shall stop slacking, and get off this thing to start on Human Rights!

through You, i can do anything!!

2008-11-10T00:02:00.002+11:00

now we've all grown up
gone on and moved away
nothing left to do about it
nothing i can say
to bring us back to where we were
when life was not this hard
looking back it all just seems so far
so far away

but when push comes to shove we all need to grow up in the end

i miss that town
i miss their faces
you can’t erase
you can’t replace it
i miss it now
i can’t believe it
so hard to stay
too hard to leave it

if I could relive those days
i know the one thing that would never change

You are my God
the Great I Am

You are the Rock
on which i stand

and You reign
You reign, oh Lord
You reign
You reign

cos it's just all for You <3

2008-10-27T02:54:00.007+11:00

cos this life is a beautiful one

and though i've seen it coming undone

i know most definitely

there's gonna be you

there's gonna be me

so, baby keep your head up

keep it on the up and up and know now

that you got all my

love, love, love

2008-10-25T01:31:00.005+11:00

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baby, baby, baby
when all your love is gone
who will save me from all im up against
out in this world
maybe, maybe, maybe
you'll find something that's enough to keep you
but if the bright lights dont deceive you
you should turn yourself around
and come on home

cos sometimes all it takes is one person

and just a bit of re-focussing

i rmb the first time i heard this song was when i was trying to learn it for a performance in MG - i think it was our national day performance! those were some cool times man. i reckon even though i was never outstanding academically, never really involved in any cca, and never involved in any area of leadership - it was because of all that, which made secondary(high) school life that much more interesting.

i really miss the MG days; they were such a massive part of how i became who i am today. and i always always look back in fondness at the memories that have been made. im glad that God put me there, despite my initial reluctance to attend MG. the values, the culture/atmosphere, the warm/loving/family environment that some might label as idealistic and protected have shaped me and are a big part of me even now.

a realistic-idealist.

if i had to define what sort of person i am, that'd be it. sometimes, i admit, i take on an idealistic view of the world - choosing to believe that people are inherently good. that we are all intrinsically altruistic, and that circumstances happen along the way that alter that. but i know that it's not like that all the time, my head's still firmly on my shoulders. i know that disappoints and hurts are part of life as well, and that they cant be avoided no matter what. but i reckon there's always a reason they happen, and it's up to us to choose to bounce back [of course, being Christians we have the added advantage of our Daddy God helping us (:].

i was watching FRIENDS ytd night, and there was this conversation that went on between joey and phoebe, and i thought it was intriguing! (see, FRIENDS is stimulating heh :D) -

joey: look, there's no unselfish good deed - sorry.
phoebe: yes there are! there are totally good deeds that are selfless.

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joey: all people are selfish.
phoebe: are you calling me selfish?
joey: are you calling you.. people? yeah, sorry to burst that bubble phoebs, but selfless good deeds dont exist.

and the argument was that because people end up feeling good about themselves at the end of the good deed, it's fundamentally selfish.

BUTTTTT, i sorely beg to differ

was having this conversation with a friend today and we came to the conclusion that -

good deeds are not selfish. because the primary motivation of the person doing the good deed is not to feel good about themselves, but really for the advantage of the person they're helping. the feeling good is simply a "side-effect" (for lack of a better word).

HOWEVER we did make an interesting discovery though. let's say good deeds Are selfish and they're really done to make one feel better about oneself. then wouldnt everyone in the world be going out and doing heaps of good deeds to feel good? now, would that really be a bad thing? i dont think so! haha you'd see so many old people being helped to cross the street and adults buying lollies for kiddies

but i digress

yeah so i guess, there has to be a middle ground that exists. we cant be cynical and jaded because then there'd be no more hope, no more dreams, and love would struggle to exist. neither can we have our heads up in the clouds, cos then we'd smack our heads on reality one day and just be completely crushed.

ehh how the heck did i get into this..

haha ANYWAYYYY

im no longer with alvin's camera - not to say im not interested in photography though! just that i reckon i dont really have a flair for it.. haha sadly. i reckon it needs passion, but for me it's more of just a hobby. ah well, i'll still fiddle with one of the cameras around though! they're not in short supply anyway haha

i like photos which distort lights, like the one at the top

let me light up the sky

light it up for you

for all my rambling, at the end of the day it's about hope.

whether you're a realist, a cynic, an idealist, or still searching. we're all looking for someone to trust. someone who'll hold on to us when we feel like we cant hold on anymore, someone to take away the hurt, someone who'll love us no matter what.

and i choose to put hope in the One

who never disappoints,

who never lets me go,

who always knows what's best for me,

who knows exactly what to say and when to say it, and

who loves me more than i'll ever understand.

at the end of the day,

He's the reason that i can love, that i can hope, that there's a perpetual silver lining no matter how dark the clouds are (:

and honestly, after finding this nothing else matters but Jesus

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it's all about Jesus
it's all about the way He changed our live
it's all about Jesus
the power of His blood cant be denied

thank You for saving me (:

thank You for the love You give unconditionally, the freedom You give, and for always always being there for me.

You are all i need,

i love You!

2008-10-19T01:18:00.003+11:00

as i pray and wait upon the Lord
i know Your grace, in love i am restored
as i think of all You've done for me
the mystery of Your love

who walked upon the sea
who lived to die for me

You, Lord
You, Lord
You, Lord
You are Lord

sometimes, it feels like we've got it sorted. like we finally got it somewhat figured out. and somewhere along the way, complacency creeps in. it's almost as if we tell God "yeah, it's alright i got it"

but oh how i thank God when He gives me gentle reminders, time and again no matter how long it takes to learn the lesson, that that is simply not the case. at all.

Father, Your love, Your faithfulness, Your patience never ceases to amaze me.. each and every time i come back crying out to You - You look at me with eyes full of love, full of grace. with arms wide open, ready to embrace me to tell me that You've missed me, that Your love for me will never change, and that You will never leave me.

(this was on a friend's blog but it really spoke to me-)
Jesus, You're already my best friend. so here i am today - i want to be Your best friend too.
there is no one like You

as i look upon You i am changed
though i fail, Your faithful love remains
as i sing and worship You
i find again no words describe Your love

who watches over me
whose love has covered me

You, Lord
You, Lord
You, Lord
You are Lord

even as i realise that it's only through His grace that i am who i am today, that it's only becaue Jesus has seen me through that i am still standing today - once again everything else falls into place.

turn Your eyes upon Jesus

look full in His wonderful face

and the things of earth

will grow strangely dim

in the light of His glory and grace

i need You, God. more and more of You, every day. no more chasing things that will eventually lead to nothing - i live for You, first.

take me deeper

than i've been before

2008-10-10T21:24:00.003+11:00

this is my prayer in the desert

when all that's within me is dry

this is my prayer in my hunger and need

my God is a God who provides

this is my prayer in the fire

in weakness or trial or pain

there is a faith proved more worthy than gold

so refine me Lord through the flame

and i will bring praise

i will bring praise

no weapon formed against me shall remain

i will rejoice

i will declare

God is my victory and He is here

this is my prayer in the battle

when triumph is still on its way

i am a conqueror and co-heir with Christ

so firm on His promise i'll stand

i will bring praise

no weapon formed against me shall remain

i will rejoice

i will declare

God is my victory and He is here

all of my life

in every season

You are still God

i have a reason to sing

i have a reason to worship

this is my prayer in the harvest

when favour and providence flow

i know im filled to be emptied again

the seed i've received i will sow

Isaiah 40:29-31

He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, walk and not be faint.

2008-09-30T20:03:00.003+10:00

back in sunny (hot) singapore!

currently in coffee bean with jess, using the brilliant island-wide singapore wireless! :D it's quite awesome hey.
i've managed to take quite a number of shots of her! and she dont like photos - accomplishment :D

jess refuses to say anything because she claims that silence is the true test of a friendship.
which i am inclined to believe, in certain circumstances.
she's currently doing her econs assignment, while im doing global pol - SIGH poor us. haha okay actually we've been talking more but oh wellll

this is actually just to say im alive since i havent updated in like forever.

anyway we're off to get frolick now!

(:

so no one told you life was gonna be this way
your job's a joke you're broke
your love life's D.O.A
it's like you're always stuck in second gear
when it hasnt been nyour day your week your month
or even your year

but

i'll be there for you
(when the rain starts to pour)
i'll be there fore you
(like i've been there before)
i'll be there for you
cos you're there for me too

just because FRIENDS is the best -
in all sense of the sentence (:

<3

2008-09-08T22:18:00.004+10:00

going back to the corner
where i first saw you
gonna camp in my sleeping back
im not gonna move

i should be doing more productive things other than blogging seeing as how i have 2 mega assignments due in 7days.

sometimes, well actually most times especially in tutes, i find myself zoning out and my mind just wanders. it's not a good thing, but it's not necessarily a bad thing either.
the battlefield of the mind.

it's easy to fall back into the past, fall back into old patterns. of behaviours, of thinking, of feeling. but it's times like these we have to make a stand.
to stop running away, stop avoiding and acknowledge it, and deal with it.
clearly, im still learning this - but God is faithful,
and i know my God mighty to save.

which brings me to a quote that used to be frequently passed around in MG:
dont focus on how big your problem is
instead

focus on how big your God is!

(:

i just want You, Jesus

i just want You, my Lord

OMG "jon the freak" (quote lydia haha) let weiying and me see this vid on youtube!! it's FLIPPING FUNNYYYYY!!! seriously, i think i laughed at it for 15mins straight - well, cos he was replaying it like 10times. hahhaha!

okay go to youtube,

and type in "sneezing panda"

THEN WATCH IT!!

hahahahaha

debs loves spring (: says:
hahaha im flipping laughing to myself in my room la!!
peako was lost and you saved Him says:
oh my lord (ng, 2008)
peako was lost and you saved Him says:
sorry sorry
peako was lost and you saved Him says:
(lim, 2008 cited in ng, 2008)

hahaha

more evidence on how education ruins the mind and infiltrates every area of our lives. even msn convos cannot escape.

(apparently, south lawn has become my second home. haha.)

because it's spring, and the sun is out (:

2008-09-05T02:16:00.009+10:00

so it's 2.18am now

and im awake

...listening to abba songs and doing my critical thinking assignment.

haha old school.

everytime i think about abba i have this dusty memory.. of my dad and me in his olddd car last time long ago. we were going to pick up my mum, sis and brother from a swimming/tennis complex - cant really rmb what now. and he was in his "let's revive abba!" phase so he was playing the cd over and over again, singing along at the top of his lungs with his very (oddly) endearing out of tune voice.

i think, that's the very first time i ever started being drawn to music.

after that, we'd sing along to abba, michael learns to rock, or some kids Christian cds that my mum would get for us, or specially for kids albums with songs about mash potatoes and parents having to count to 3 before kids would do as they're told.

i miss my family.

to the 2 most adorable kids (well, both of you arent really kids anymore hey haha) on the planet!

no matter what, im just a phonecall/sms away. i know you guys are really busy, but must take time to rest okay! during the hols when everything's less crazy and we all have more time, we can do our fun lunches/shopping/ice-cream splurges again :D

jiejie loves you SO much!

see you guys in 3weeks3days (:

2008-09-01T23:05:00.005+10:00

HELLO!!

haha im really quite an unfaithful blogger hey.
really must learn how to lock this thing. or some entries. someone, help? haha

well, im going to crash soon (amazingly, before mn!) but before i do, just wanted to let everyone know that im still alive and well heh (:

just finished my first major assignment - global pol essay! hope it went okay.. slept at 7am this morning.
was in the library(yes, i have changed i no longer hate it. well. actually it's the only place i can go since starbucks closed and lygon court is how dodgy. haha) doing research and writing - and jon comes and types this in my essay draft:

Liberal democracy – a form of democracy where things are either liberal, liberated or in the statue of liberty (Tan 2008). This is definitely in no way a form of bullshit as countless studies and research projects have been conducted on the subject to in efforts to liberate democracy from the chains of liberal democracy. Furthermore, these standards of liberalism are not bound to the laws of democracy, that is saying that liberty is in fact not the choice of the public, but the choice of democratic liberalist.

hahaha full of rubbish.
so i woke up at 1 to go for tute, where my tutor confuses me with grace! HAHA. i practically didnt have to talk at all, while poor grace had to keep answering questions! :D
but seriously, we dont look alike at all. she has long hair, my hair's still fairly short. i wear glasses, she dosnt. our cardis were totally different. sheeeesh. strange it is

anyway!

planetshakers just had our very first morning service on sunday!
:D
it was off the dial!!
acoustic, live album recording (:
all your favourites - even stuff way back from the first album ever!
and 'reflector' during third service was sweet as.
so cant wait for the album to come out!!!

I <3 MY URBS (:

we can make a change.
absolutely!

okay it's nearing my bedtime!

just to end off, a conversation from the other day -

“i think in heaven there will be shopping and all the mimco bags will be on sale. and i can eat whatever i want and not grow fat. and i’ll have the nicest complexion. and i’ll go fishing and eat it live! and patrick will be a real dog. and your room will be next to mine so i can pinch your cheeks!”
“what makes you think im getting just a room in heaven?”

haha <3

nighto (:

2008-08-22T23:57:00.005+10:00

You have never changed
Your love is endless
and Your mercy has remained
through all the ages
You shine so bright

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nothing can compare
You made the heavens
and Your glory fills the air
through all the ages
You ride the ancient skies
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and You ride the ancient skies
You’re amazing
creation cries
so will i
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now we stand amazed
and now we sing the word they sang in ancient days
a single word that’s overflowing endless praise

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Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah

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! i'm a pirate, you're a princess says:
'credits to clari, my most amazingest friend')
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despite everything
You are God
and we will praise
cos our trust is in You
and You alone

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<3

2008-08-20T01:32:00.003+10:00

so what can i say?

and what can i do?

but offer this heart, oh God

completely to You

i'll stand

with arms high and heart abandoned

in awe

of the One who gave it all

i'll stand

my soul Lord to You surrendered

all i am

is Yours

2008-08-14T23:54:00.015+10:00

JASON MRAZ

the crooner, MR. A-Z himself (:

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3 words:

awesome awesome awesome

opening with The Remedy - he's absolutely amazing.

most artistes sound worse live, but jason actually sounds better.

went wild with the first song alr! and it just kept getting better (:

went with piaks, mx, mh, audrey and michelle!

he's the epitome of chill out i believe.

never will you meet a more laid back artiste - it was he wasnt playing on stage but to a bunch of friends!

cool, very cool.

bought a sweet as t-shirt which i have alr worn :D

he ended with an acoustic solo version of You and I

which made the crowd swoon, and reduced me to a puddle of butter on the floor of Forum haha

absolutely the best.

that one night alone made my entire week. possibly, my entire month haha.

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a minor setback though,

jason was so hot that i got a fever after his concert

haha

now ain't that the truth :D

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and it's okay

if you have to go away

just remember the telephone

well it works both ways

and if i never ever hear them ring

if nothing else i'll think the bells inside

have finally found you someone else

and that's okay

cos i'll remember everything you say

2008-08-05T15:17:00.002+10:00

im sick of playing

the game of religion

im tired of losing

my reason for living

where's the power

the power of the cross

in my life

im not content just to walk through my life

giving in to the lies

walking in compromises

now

we cry out

as a generation

that was lost

but now is found in the power

of the cross

we believe in You

we believe in the power of Your Word and its truth

we believe in You

so we lay down our cause that our cross might be found in You

im not satisfied

doing it my own way

im not satisfied

to do church and walk away

im not satisfied

there's no love in my life but You

im not satisfied

living in ytd's hour

im not satisfied

to have the form but not the power

im not satisfied

Lord i am crucified in You

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GRACE SAYS HELLO! and the guys in like the olympics, the swimmers, they are like, super hot. OMG OMG OMG.

haha yes we are currently watching the swimming olympics in kern's apartment. oggling just a little, i might add hahaha. and ytd i was watching the synchronised diving with weiying.

on a side note, OMG there's this FOURTEEN year old boy who has like a crazy ripped bod. seriously. and like weiying said - he hasnt even hit puberty yet!! seriously man, like what the heck. and he's in the olympics! at 14!! he's alr so good. he must've started training like since 3 or sth. im 18, still in school and all i know is im going to major in psych next year.

NO WORRIES. God will lead me when the time is right (:

actually, it's scary that some ppl find their everything in what they do. like it's their "be all, end all". and if they fall short, they break.

i guess there's always 2 sides to a coin

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cant believe it's the third week of school alr, time is flyyyying.
grace and i have alr had to hand in an assignment! more to come soon, i bet.

on a random note, i havent cooked properly since i've gotten back :D i will, soon though. haha. i need my chicken stock!!
and college square is so annoying, the stupid fire alarm is going off - AGAIN. fainted.
hahaha and grace is commenting on how big the swimmer's mouths go when they come up for air hahaha.

my timetable's pretty alright this sem - aside from the fact that i have school Every Single Day. but it's spread out so i reckon it's fine.
let me just announce my resolution this semester:
im gonna go for all my classes this semester!

all you skeptics who dont believe me, HAH i will prove you wrong :D
thus far, i have been faithful in going to all my classes. including the silly morning ones, and boring useless crim ones. awesome possum :D

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okay im hungry. gonna go now

OH
IM GOING FOR JASON MRAZ TONIGHT!!! :D:D:D
pics on the way ((:

<3

2008-07-26T01:47:00.002+10:00

flying back to melbourne tmr night!

i cant believe my hols are ending.
they didnt really feel like hols.. actually, i dont think i've had proper hols in more than a year. like proper do-nothing-bum-around hols. sigh, goldcoast come backkk..

on a random note,
"better with you" has been my favourite song ever since i got it in sec3(according to debbie). haha i dont think i'll ever get sick of listening to it.

also,
weiying has officially got me hooked on chinese songs. haha. well, a few in particular. haha who would've thought eh? the reaction i get whenever i tell anyone falls into 2 categories:
1) open-mouthed, eyes widened in shock and a stunned silence for a few seconds [this is majority of the responses haha]
2) "HAH I TOLD YOU!!"/"yeahhhh now then you knowww" [a few of the closet cheenah friends i have hahaha]

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your night may be my day
and though the seasons change

it's still the same side of the moon
that we'll be looking on when the world turns blue
know that time and space cant come between me and you

we share the same side of the moon
and though you'll never see my tears shine through
i know i cant be that far from you
if we're both looking on the same side of the moon

2008-07-18T02:28:00.003+10:00

an interesting conversation

(i was wearing my guitar pick earrings)
p: wow those would be so handy i always lose my picks
d: pierce your ear! but make sure you pierce the right side
p: is the right side the left side?
d: yeah that's right, so on the right side would be the wrong side

haha

i went rollerblading today! it was super tiring - yes i am convinced now. i Do need to exercies, cos i really am becoming quite unfit. boo

spent more time talking than blading today, as usual (: and of course the traditional occurence! hahaha. ooh and i so miss island creamery - teh tarik, kahlua latte, reverso :D mmm.
one thing we were saying today -
it's quite sad how things get snapped up into a fad so fast nowadays. just 2 examples - jason mraz and island creamery. last time, it was just a few ppl that were into them. i mean, kudos to them that they're so widely loved now! but it was cool that it was just a few ppl that knew about them. now it's just all mainstream and crowds. ah well

the thing about you
is you know just how to get me
you talk about us
like there's no end in sight

the thing about me
is that i really wanna let you
open that door
and walk into my life

move in a little closer
take it to a whisper
just a little louder

another thing that was on my mind is that it's so cool to see ppl really getting a revelation and living their life the way God intended us to live. in total freedom, set free from past bondages, redeemed by His grace.
im amazed by the testimonies, and the way His love rescues time and time again. in any and every circumstance, He meets each and every person at the point of their need. each experience with Him is personalised and unique to just how you want it, and what you need most.

and i remember how You saw me

through the eyes of Your grace

and all the cost was

Your beloved for me

still You made a way

Jesus, You're so amazing. im overwhelmed everytime i think about how much You love me

im going to watch dark knight tmr! i Think it's the same day the melb ppl are watching it too! cool beans :D

okay im gonna watch some tv now heh

where would we be without You Jesus

where would we be without You Lord

2008-07-15T18:08:00.006+10:00

oh wow it's almost been a month since i last updated!
haha okay sorry i know i really suck at this.

我把你緊緊擁入壞裡
捧你在我手心

as you can tell, im into chinese songs now! :D
haha okay not really, just That chinese song. thanks to weiying haha

well 1 semester's flown by just like that! exams have come and gone, results are out, i've gone to the sunshine state then back to melb, and now back in s'pore!
haha busy busy

the flight back was good! i had 2 seats all to myself cos the plane was pretty empty (the advantages of flying back at a random time!), and believe it or not - i didnt watch a single movie! only 2 shows; i've discovered how those 7h can be spent differently

gold coast was absolutely sweet as, for sure!
sea world
movie world
wet n wild
surfer's paradise
it was the company that totally made it awesome beyond awesome (:

<3

today's only the first day in s'pore, and i think i've eaten like 5 meals omg. if im not careful, i think i might become a ball. haha

and i've tried not to let anyone in until now
misunderstandings are an easy way out
and i've been feeling all this pressure just to figure it out
and i know, dont know, yeah i know, dont know

thank You Jesus(:
where would we be without You Jesus
where would we be without You Lord

2008-06-18T01:34:00.003+10:00

i will praise You
name above every name
cos im trusting in Your word everyday
it dont matter even what people say
cos im walking in my promise today

2 down 2 to go!
democracy on friday, ppe next friday.

watched 'Sex and the City' last night! good show (: haha i bawled my eyes out during the new year's eve bit sigh. i must say, one thing that jumped out at me was the portrayal of the 4 ladies' friendship. i confess it made me rather nostalgic
winter blues + nostalgia = watching (old) videos and reminiscing

when memories fade
we've got each other
when time and confusion collide
i hold it all when i hold you
when friends walk other ways
we've got each other
i hold it all when i hold you

as a result... i found jukebox vids on youtube! with us playing our trademark 'Wherever You Will Go' and 'Drops of Jupiter'! couldnt even rmb playing 'You Set Me Free' but rediscovered it and it's in my ipod now :D

even when im scared
when im in the lowest valley
i know that You are always there
and i will praise You

i guess it's just easier to cling on to sth you know, sth that's familiar, sth with consequences that you're sure of; rather than letting go and trusting that He wont let you fall. it's a process - letting go bit by bit, day by day. it's not just that letting go is hard, it's about the trust too

trust that God will provide - just like Abraham trusted God enough to sacrifice what meant most to him in his life and God provided the sacrifice in the end; just like Peter trusted God to keep him walking on water and he had such an awesome experience

my heart and my soul, i give You control

in the storm, in the raging sea
love conquered the fear and delievered me
and i know
You'll never let me go

all i need is You

love opened my eyes show me what you see
i know
i'll never let you go

<3

2008-06-14T01:25:00.002+10:00

1 down, 3 to go

it was SO COLD in the exam hall - the rain so did not help. plus i got cramps half way through. sheeeesh

it feels strange so many things are pretty surreal now

for one, i cant believe im doing my first university exams. and honestly, i have no idea how i did. i mean and prepared and all (seriously, think major nerd.) - revising, and re-revising. but time management wasnt that great during the paper. oh well it's all in His hands now!

and for another, jon is in melb! fainted. i stopped in the middle of the road cos i was so shocked haha

oh it was so weird during the management paper, Again i say Rejoice kept playing in my head! haha it was such a dreary day and such an annoying paper, but such a happy uplifting song :D

okay gonna bathe and study now

<3

cos His mercies are new every morning

2008-06-11T12:59:00.001+10:00

REJOICE!

IN THE LORD, ALWAYS

AND AGAIN I SAY,

AGAIN I SAY

REJOICE! (:

2008-05-29T20:24:00.002+10:00

it's my 301st post!
(i've had this blog for 4 years, so that makes an average of less than 100posts/year. haha im such an unfaithful blogger.)

it's the last day of my first semester in uni!
i cant believe a im done with my first sem of my first year in uni - it's surreal.
1 down, 5 to go!

throughout this semester(i know i just started uni but it's been quite a big transition period for me), even though there've been tough times - physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually - God's just brought me through everythinggg! His love and grace are amazing (:

Your love is amazing
steady and unchanging

just one example that really testifies to His goodness:

my essays - i was sick during the whole essay period and had to ask for extension. and cos everything came at once i was really tight for time. and there was this period where i was just losing it - like i was stressing out and being all grumpy, and God really just rescued me (: He gave me the peace and joy that i so needed.

oh the joy You have given to me
oh the peace You have given to me
oh the love You have given to me
it makes me want to sing forever

and when i was sooo tired cos i'd been sleeping at 4am, writing heaps of words, He gave me the strength to carry on. (seriously, im not being dramatic i was really really really zonked) that kind of strength is so not normal haha. and when i spoke i wasnt coherent(sometimes) but my points formed and the sentences flowed.

You are my Strength
Strength like no other
Strength like no other
reaches to me

You are my Hope
Hope like no other
Hope like no other
reaches to me

in the fullness of Your grace
in the power of Your name
You lift me up

and now that i've gotten back some essay results,

ALL THE PRAISE GOES TO YOU
LORD FOREVER WE WILL SING
ALL THE LOVE GOES TO YOU
WE WILL PRAISE YOU!!!

thank You Jesus ((:

Romans 8:37
No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us.

(:

COME CELEBRATE!

FRIDAY 30/5

MCCC

BRING ALONG YOUR FRIENDS TOO! :D

see ya (:

<3

2008-05-26T23:03:00.007+10:00

HIIIIIIII (:

i actually wanted to this quite awhile ago (like when i first finished all the essays and what not), but got too caught up heh so here it is now:

THANKS EVERYONE WHO WAS SO AWESOMELY SUPPORTIVE AND ENCOURAGING (: i really really appreciate all of you, and all the little things you guys did kept me sane and helped me survive (:

you guys know who you are (: and for the many that i dont have photos with/of, thank you as well(:
love all of you so much!

anywayyyy

so last week was my break week where i totally just didnt study or do assignment. haha it felt weird, but great :D
omgosh i shopped so much it was nuts. haha im officially broke. no more shopping man.

but i love all my new stuff!
ESPECIALLY MY CONVERSE WOOHOO

haha okay moving along

nathan: haylie, im not trying to shut you out okay; i just dont understand enough to let you in yet
haylie: whatever it is, we're gonna get through it together. im right here nathan. im not going anywhere

i heart OTH ((:

finished watching the entire season4 in like 4days - it's the besttttt.
cant believe they're my age though.. crazyy

on another note,

COME CELEBRATE!

this friday, MCCC (next to Melbourne Central)!

it's gonna be HEAPS of FUN! (:

be there, or be square!!

:D

and with that, im off!

(:

<3

p.s.
Christina says:
aww your essay is so emo it mde me tear

well, it's the truth nana and i do miss you lots (: love you.

2008-05-16T04:57:00.002+10:00

NO MORE ESSAYS FOR THE SEMESTER!!! :D

i just submitted my last essay over lms :D:D:D

thank You Jesus for seeing me through!!

seriously, every ounce of strength that i have (well had, after this im gonna crash man.), the peace that i felt, the ability to do whatever i had to do while still essaying for the past 2.5weeks -
ALL ONLY COS OF JESUS! (:

thank You Jesus, and thank you everyone who encouraged me along the way (:

oh oh, another cool thing -
during my last lap of my essaying (like while writing my last point to conclusion)
i turned on jon's ipod again cos it was charging and put the playlist i created on shuffle
these were the first 4 songs that were played:

awesome God
our God is an awesome God
He reigns from heaven above
with wisdom, power and love
our God is an awesome God

soldier
keep singing till my voice runs out
keep running till He lifts me up
keep singing cos i cant stop

all the world cant stop, cant stop Him

shout unto God
cos the enemy has been defeated
and death couldnt hold You down
gonna lift our voice in victory
gonna make Your praises loud

shout unto God with a voice of triumph
shout unto God with a voice of praise
shout unto God with a voice triumph
we lift Your name up, we lift Your name up!

devotion
when You stand,
tall trees and mountains bow
when You speak,
the fiercest of oceans is stilled
and i see,
sinners seek devotion
the lost become chosen
and i fall to my knees

through Him we have the victory! truly, NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE WITH GOD! He's just awesome beyond awesome (:

You are more than enough for me.
im in awe of Your love for me, and Your grace which covers me.
thank You (:

<3

2008-05-11T03:10:00.003+10:00

sarahannek says:
ITS MOTHERS DAY
sarahannek says:
HAPPY MOATHERS DAY WOMAN
sarahannek says:
hahahaha
sarahannek says:
give birthy
sarahannek says:
QUICK
love broke through the darkness & lifted me; and i know, You'll never let me go. says:
YEAH HAPPY MUM DAY!
love broke through the darkness & lifted me; and i know, You'll never let me go. says:
haha you then.
sarahannek says:
i want
sarahannek says:
haha
sarahannek says:
but must find manman

HAHAHA SANNEKHOO!!! you are the most retarded/funny/adorable neighbour ever! hahahha it's 312 in the morning and im having fun conversations :D

in other news...
HUANG SHIYOU AND DIANE LEOW YOU ARE OFFICIALLY 18!!!
i hope both of you had a gooood weekend! :D
love you both (:

and alsooo..

i <3 my family (:

(and i want all the photos from camp/birthdays/random photos/camwhoring around campus please!!! :D)

p.s. and i didnt know that 'xoxo' meant hugs and kisses - i cant rmb whether x is hug and o is kiss, but well that's quite cool!

so

xoxo!
<3 (:

2008-05-08T22:25:00.002+10:00

You are my Strength

Strength like no other

Strength like no other

reaches to me

You are my Hope

Hope like no other

Hope like no other

reaches to me

in the fullness of Your grace

in the power of Your name

You lift me up

You lift me up

Your love, oh Lord

reaches to the heavens

Your faithfulness

reaches to the sky

it's only by Your grace, and only by Your power (:

through You, i can do anything!!

Romans 8:37
No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loves us.

(:

<3

2008-04-23T01:58:00.003+10:00

when You stand

tall trees and mountains bow

when You speak

the fiercest of oceans is stilled

and i see

sinners seek devotion

the lost become chosen

and i fall to my knees

i will take up my cross and follow

Lord where You lead me

i will take up my cross and follow

wherever You go

dear you,

i really wish i could be there as you go through this time of your life as you face so much. but i know God has a purpose, me being 6000miles away from you, even though i dont know what now.. but im glad you know i am always here. you have grown so much and words will never express how proud i am of you. not because of what you've done or your accomplishments, even though i am super happy for you because of them! but because of who you are. your gentle spirit, your giving nature, the love that you have and are willing to share. i know you are so anointed and God just has an awesome plan for you. keep going to Him in everything, and rmb that you never have to do this on your own. i love you so much. now and always.

over all the earth, You reign on high

every mountain stream, every sunset sky

but my one request, Lord my only aim

is that You reign in me again

i went to watch the sunset on friday at st kilda's! (: it was beautiful. i realise, you never really see it properly - until you Really go notice it. the changing shades of the sky, the sinking sun, the reflections on the water. amazing. God is so intricate.

in other news,
JAKE HAS CONVERTED WAHAHA.

jake says:
i show you nice shoes i wanna buy
we will be Your hands, we will be Your feet says:
HAHAHAHA that's totally the aussie-guy kind of shoe!!
we will be Your hands, we will be Your feet says:
you totally like aussieland admit it!
we will be Your hands, we will be Your feet says:
hahaha now you have to stop badmouthing melb cos you totally love the style hahaha
jake says:
isit are you serious
jake says:
gosh
jake says:
haha okay fine, melb is cool

we will be Your hands, we will be Your feet says:
i told you melb ppl have good taste.
jake says:
haha yesyesyes
jake says:
i give in

AHHAHAHA. sucked in!! :D

oh wow it's 230 haha okay i better get some sleep heh

love you guys (:

<3

2008-04-16T16:02:00.003+10:00

the view that my eyes are getting most these days:

nvm after this friday i wont have essays for 2weeks! :D

Jesus, i know You'll get me through this.
what's 3000words when You wrote the whole bible. haha (:

cos i know my God saved the day
and i know His word never fails
and i know my God made a way for me
it's gonna be alright!

Jeremiah 29:11
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to proper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

AMEN!

<3

2008-04-13T03:01:00.002+10:00

over all the earth, You reign on high
every mountain stream, every sunset sky
but my one request, Lord my only aim
is that You reign in me again

over every thought, over every word
may my life reflect the beauty of my Lord
cos You mean more to me
than any earthly thing
so wont You reign in me again

Lord reign in me
reign in Your power
over all my dreams, in my darkest hour
You are the Lord of all i am
so wont you reign in me again

i guess from the get-go, it was destined already. i probably felt something, but at the time brushed it off as nothing more than a fuzzy feeling of sorts. haha typical. it's no wonder actually, seeing as how the first encounter was already overseen by 2 powerhouses. only through His perfect orchestration. it's amazing how things work out. and everyday i thank God that He worked it out as perfectly as He did.

You're all i want
You're all i've ever needed

it's never been, never should, and never will be about anything but You.

`
haha sorry about not posting regularly! uni life is pretty hectic :D but it's alright, i guess it's just part of growing up. it's not getting easier to write essays - hopefully it will soon. haha okay well it's like 3 alr, and i should be studying and then sleeping.

just hope the song touches you as much as it did me (:
it's such a simple song, but God moves when you really mean what you say or sing to Him.

stay strong everyone! (: if you cant do it on your own strength, DONT! do it in His strenth :D

my God is mighty to save.

LOVE ALL OF YOU (:

<3

2008-04-02T00:40:00.002+11:00

expectations are dangerous.

only You can make me whole

when the world has fallen out from under me

i'll be found in You

still standing

when the sky rolls up and mountains fall on their knees

when time and space are through

i'll be found in You

You will bring me through.

2008-03-24T02:45:00.004+11:00

hi!

yes, im back in s'pore.
but not for long more though

anyway i discovered nice songs on my flight back haha
i want Plain White T's "Every Second Counts" album and Rascal Flatt's "Still Feels Good" album!

i <3 s'pore and melb (:

nothing much, except catching up with ppl which is always awesome(: oh and studying. cos im in uni. nyehh. someone help me with my essays i dont really know what to do heh..

```

everything you say or do i am always there for you
whether you're laughing or you're screaming
no one else could take your place
i will always see your face
when im awake and when i am dreaming

i cant stand to watch you go
cos in my head deep down i know
i dont wanna live without you
i love the way we stay up late
the way you laugh at your mistakes
i love everything about you

cos i believe
there's a place for you and me
in this crazy world

if you come running back to me
i'll be here waiting
cos i still believe in a love worth saving

come back to me, i'll be here waiting
cos im on my knees and my love's not fading

```

T.H. White once said "perhaps we all give the best of our hearts critically to those who hardly think about us in return."
- Lucas

i <3 OTH :D

that's about it! (:

surrendered.
<3

2008-03-12T01:44:00.002+11:00

cos when im weak, You make me strong

when im blind, You shine Your light on me

cos i'll never get by

living on my own ability

how refreshing to know You dont need me

how amazing to find that You want me

so i'll stand on Your truth

and i'll fight with Your strength

till You bring the victory

by the power of Christ in me

only through You (:
<3

2008-02-27T03:24:00.002+11:00

HALLO (:

finally it's about time for a proper update!

well, im very nicely settled into College Square in my apartment ((: this is like waaay better than staying in palmerston last year! :D oh apart from the whole deal with cooking.. which i will catch on soon.. promise. haha

enrolment into uni was last thurs and first day of orientation was ytd. uh suffice to say, i will not be going anymore till school starts proper. im okay, just need to get my bearings and anyway everything i need to know is online i just gotta be not lazy and read it so yeah (:

im very pleased to say that my room looks like my room. like if ppl came in, it wouldnt look like some random room or anything. posters/pictures/presents/cards are up on the walls, my table is cluttered with stuff alr haha, beanbag's in a corner, guitar's in the opposite corner, bedside tables are dumped with books/bodybutter/bottles/etcetc.. love it! :D
i will post a picture one day when im not so lazy and when it's not so late at night, or early in the morning haha

oh oh!
I HAVE A LANDLINE NOW!
haha expect calls now ppl! :D
and my internet is working.. except for silly msn Again. fainted. pray that it becomes okay!!

so the days are still long, and (well for me) lazy (: this part of summer's the best! it's cool enough, but there's still so much daylight. and it's definitely not boring anymore, thanks to last year! plus living in college square has perks like you can visit your neighbours any time :D

a fun fact:
if some of you rmb, i complained to no end about econs last year right. but in the New Generation BA, you have to take 2 Breadth subjects which are like contrasting to most subjects you take. guess what mine are. BOTH are commerce subjects. sighh fainted.
definitely gotta do sth about that. dunno what i was thinking when i chose.

but my other subjects for this semester are
democracy (scott says it's sth like political science so that should be cool!)
philosophy, history & economics
psychology - mind, brain, body
managing people and organisations

and my semester2 subs are all sth like that. when my dad heard he was like "huh totally no math or science at all?? wow this generation is so different." haha considering that my mum has like some degree in math or sth, and my dad has an engineering degree - both super maths/science and im completely arts it's quite interesting eh.
except i have no idea what i wanna do that's why it's soo broad. oh well, God will reveal in time to come (:

and it's true i can't go on without you
your smile makes me see clear
if you could only see in the mirror
what i see

and i know you may be scared
and i know we're unprepared
but i dont care

so until next time,

<3

2008-02-22T00:44:00.000+11:00

i miss home, and i miss you

and finally the silence
looking out
looking back across the sky
trying to find a meaning
knowing that i just left it all behind

still i smell a lingering softness
where did she go, how did she go
i wanna, i wanna know
i wanna know that she'll be coming here
to me

come on, without you i'll never feel the love inside of me
come on, you know that we belong
come on, come on
come on, come on

<3

2008-02-16T04:18:00.000+11:00

a strangled smile fell from your face
it kills me that i hurt you this way
the worst part is that i didn't even know
now there's a million reasons for you to go
but if you can find a reason to stay

i'll do whatever it takes
to turn this around
i know what's at stake
i know that i've let you down
and if you give me a chance
believe that i can change
i'll keep us together
whatever it takes

i know you deserve much better
remember the time i told you the way that i felt
and that i'd be lost without you and never find myself
let's hold onto each other above everything else
start over,

start over..

and so begins the 3rd last day in s'pore

<3

2008-02-12T12:55:00.000+11:00

every minute im not with you
i hope i'll see you soon
there's just something that happens
when you walk into the room

so it's about 6days more till melbourne again! but i'll be back really soon again so haha nothing doing man. silly jaw. here are reactions to this :

come here let me break your jaw again so you'll have to come back all thru uni hawhaw
-NAT

you come back so often we dont even have time to miss you!
-ADRIEL

it's good what, if not mummy will miss you too much HEHEHE
-PAPA
(omg he did this really funny laugh thing that didnt sound like him haha)

ee nasty i just killed a bug on my screen. OH SPEAKING OF NASTY, (which is my new word of the month haha) MURIEL HAS A VERY INTERESTING INTERPRETATION hahaha

me: nasty would be nawsteh in the english accent. and it'd be nehstay in the american accent.
mu: and in the cheenapok accent it'd be nestea, nestea, anyone want nestea?

HAHAHAHA.

and maybe you know what i mean
or maybe this is just a dream
i pinch myself just to make sure
but im still here and there you are

i wonder why we just met now
it just kind of happened somehow
but here we are together and
that's all that matters in the end

i miss minghuei and amanda dingdong alreadyyyy ):

alrightttt, im off!

<3

2008-02-07T03:06:00.000+11:00

i try so many times
but it's not taking me
and it seems so long ago
that i used to believe

and im juggling all the thoughts in my head
im juggling and my fears on fire
but im listening as it evolved in my head
im balancing on one fine wire

possibly, i may be revisiting my past long gone emo phase again thanks to my addiction to One Tree Hill. sigh. i should really go dose myself with a season of FRIENDS to recuperate man.

is anything any different because you're here?

this is the way
that im learning to breathe
im learning to crawl
im finding that You and You alone can break my fall
im living again, awake and alive
im dying to breathe in these abundant skies

i dont think i'll ever fully understand. and.. i guess im okay with that

okay first day of cny tmr! have fun everyone(:

<3

2008-02-02T02:58:00.000+11:00

happy first of feb everyone!

everything's been really great(:
right now is where i wanna be.
im doing the things i love doing most -
catching up/hanging out with peopl i love (:
bumming at home :D
improving myself in.. well, aesthetics mainly
and most importantly, growing closer to my Father
yeeaahhh
im doing good. (:

and what would a post be without some funny quotes eh?

i think im very cheap thrill. when i run, i like it when my fringe hits my eyebrow - it makes me feel cool. so i run faster.
- guonian

(after i squish her like i would squish chuck)
mei: eh you think im chuck ah...AHHH I LEFT CHICK IN THE MUSIC ROOM!!!

the reason why amanda was late :
i was looking high and low for my phone. left it in the fridge by accident! so that's why im late
AND
nat called her old chang kee cos of her currypok hairstyle hehehe
[dont worry dingdong i still love you! pocari SWEAT eh! (:]

(talking about West Grand Boulevard vs. Jordin Spark's Tattoo vs. LFO's Every Other Time while West Grand were playing as openers for the Switchfoot concert -)
me: aww "your smile keeps me up all day" is such a sweet line!
nana: you think that line's sweet but you dont think "you're on my heart just like a tattoo" is nice?!
char: (makes a face) egh that line is comparative to "sometimes we swim around like 2 dolphins in the ocean of our hearts".

HAHAHAHA
(:

we're so close to reaching

that famous happy end

almost believing

this one's not pretend

let's go on dreaming

though we know we are

so close

and still

so far

if only some things in life were like the movies yeah? i think i heard that line 3 times just today haha. but i guess if it were like in the movies, it wouldnt be so interesting! and you wouldnt learn as much. cos mostly it would end of cliched-ly.

it's too late to 'pologise

since it's 2nd of feb now, it's only 16 days till back to melb
that's like 2 weeks 2 days!
aw man i can hear it alr, tick tock tick tock
ah well, i know it's gonna be one heck of a year! and it's gonna be fun(: and challenging. but i know i'll always have supernatural help! so that's gonna be alright

not that life will be easier cos there will be no more troubles, but life will be fine in spite of them because of Him (:

dare you to move
i dare you to move
i dare you to lift yourself up off the floor
dare you to move
i dare you to move
like today never happened
today never happened
today never happened before

live life looking forward. forget your past failures and successes, cos God has more in store for YOU (:

i dare you to move.

<3

2008-01-19T04:03:00.000+11:00

we go back so far
swinging in your backyard
all the things that we used to do
we were cool back in high school
ooh i really liked you
must have been your attitude

that's why you keep running
in and out of my mind
as the years they all roll by
it's not hard to know why
i keep coming back to you

you're the only one that knows me
love it when you hold me
never find a love like this
now i'll never be lonely
look at what you've shown me
never find a love like this

well this life tried to keep us apart
you keep calling me back to your heart
im so glad you found me
wrap you all around me
never find a love like this

all my memories they got you in it
no use climbing trees without leaves in it
all my broken dreams you fix
you fix since you reminded me like this like this
i dont wanna miss you anymore
dont wanna miss you anymore

you're the only one that knows me
love it when you hold me
never find a love like this
now i'll never be lonely
look at what you've shown me
never find a love like this

<3

(:

2008-01-16T02:44:00.000+11:00

MY STUPID PHONE JUST SELF-DELETED ALL MY MSGS. aghhh. okay nvm breathe. time for a new phone. this one's all scratched up anyway..

in other news.
i had boost today! went to vivo with my brother and it was fun! he's growing up man. all these kids.. haha that made me sound about a hundred years old.

anyway, im bored and it's been awhile so :D -

You Are Cereal

Playful and lighthearted, breakfast is likely your favorite meal of the day.(In fact, you're probably the type who sneaks cereal as a midnight snack.)Your culinary skills are probably a bit lacking... and you are a sucker for junk food.Some people accuse you of eating like a kid, but you prefer to think of yourself as low maintenance.

http://www.blogthings.com/whatkindofbreakfastareyouquiz/">What Kind of Breakfast Are You?

muahah.

You Are a Peanut Butter and Jelly Sandwich

You life your life in a free form, artistic style.You are incredibly creative and at times, quite messy.Deep down, you are a kid at heart. And you aren't afraid to express it.
Your best friend: The Grilled Cheese Sandwich
Your mortal enemy: The Club Sandwich

http://www.blogthings.com/whatkindofsandwichareyouquiz/">What Kind of Sandwich Are You?

who's a grilled cheese sandwich? (:

Your Power Element is Water

Your power colors: blue and aqua
Your energy: deep
Your season: winter
Like the ocean, you evoke deep feelings and passion.You have an emotional, sensitive, and spiritual soul.A bit mysterious, you tend to be quiet when you are working out a problem.You need your alone time, so that you can think and dream.

What's" Your Power Element?

haha okay that's enough for now
off to watch FRIENDS :D

later! (:

2008-01-13T01:57:00.000+11:00

quotes! :D

in bintan...

(sher to calvin after he pissed her off)
"bitch! im gonna grab your balls now."

calvin: eh the star's gone alr..
jon: no. the plane flew away la.

at holland v...

mu: ...oh i didnt see that! i think my cheeks got bigger and my eyes got smaller.

mu: oh my gosh im so full. now i know what a turkey feels like. gobble gobble.

hahaha
i have the funniest friends.

our song is the slamming screen door
sneaking out late, tapping on your window
when we're on the phone and you talk real slow
cos it's late and your mama don't know
our song is the way you laugh
the first date "man, i didn't kiss her, and i should have"
and when I got home before i said Amen
asking God if he could play it again

(:

2008-01-03T16:13:00.000+11:00

song for 2008:

I wanna be everything You want me to be
I wanna live my life for You
You’ve placed in me everything I need to go on
I wanna show my whole world You

I put my trust in everything Your word says You are
I wanna live my life for You
I see Your truth, find grace in everything that You do
I’m gonna live to worship You

I look to You and all Your ways
I seek Your face and praise Your name

All I need is, all I need is You
In everything little thing I do
All I need is, all I need is You
Cause You’re the only One, the only One for me

Never wanna be, never wanna be
Living, living less than all You want for me
Giving all my life to my God
I worship You

(: <3

2008-01-02T14:19:00.000+11:00

happy new year!! (:

a new year, a new beginning
a fresh start, a clean slate

let's go! :D

2007-12-23T01:58:00.000+11:00

there's nothing like touching down on your home ground

im back from Japan!
that was one of the best holiday (away from sg) ever! and it didnt even consist of shopping! :D some could even call it exercise.. hahaha
i hereby announce that:
I <3 <3 <3 SKIING AND SNOWBOARDING!
even though it made me ache for days after (:
i think the club med 6days were the best. even though we had to travel for about a day non-stop, seriously - fly 6.5h to osaka airport, then 2h bus ride to obihiro airport where we had 4h waiting time, then 1.5h flight to hokkaido airport, and finally 2h bus ride to sahoro club med resort
BUT IT WAS TOTALLY WORTH IT (:
and the buffets were amazing. haha pig right, i know. but it's a good balance i suppose - eat exercise, eat, exercise. haha that's what i tell myself anyway

japan city life is crazy though! suuuper fast-paced. in the subway/train station, it's like walk-dodge-walk-dodge-dodge. so crowded!
oh i realise im really bad at theme parks. haha dont go with me if you wanna sit all the insane rides. i got sick on the freaking simulator man. embarrassment. haha and i love warm toiletbowls hahaha :D

anw some news -
audrey is going to MG next year (yeahh!! :D)
angie is going to HC next year (hehehe)
my sis is camp commandant for sec1 orientation camp (hahaha)
melbourne U here i come
aunty jan bought a takamine guitar for $800 only!

good times with my childhood friends(: haha it's true, absence does make the heart grow fonder.
...in some cases anyway.

well, there's church tmr and im zonked!

see you guys soon! (:

2007-12-12T04:00:00.000+11:00

the grass isnt always greener on the other side

grocery shopping (without having to consider the cost :D)
dental (aka torture on my mouth/teeth/jaw)
bukit timah market breakfast (yumyum:D)
orchard - shawpacplazafareastwheelocktakaparagon
grandparent's place
church!
club chinois
band prac! ((:
ghim moh market breakfast :D
vivo - shopping! :D

and now,
JAPAN in 22h!

exciting!! :D
half of s'pore's gonna be in japan though haha the more the merrier!

see you guys in 10daysss (:

it starts in my toes
make me crinkle my nose
wherever it goes
i always know
you make me smile
please stay for a while now
wherever you go
-
it starts in my soul
and i lose all control
when you kiss my nose
the feeling shows
cos you make me smile
baby just take your time now
holding me tight

(:

later!

<3

2007-12-07T01:46:00.000+11:00

The static is almost gone
From the station I grew up on
I'm getting closer now
So I turn it up real loud

Funny how a little thing like that
Can make it all come rushing back
They say it's not the same
But to me it will never change

When I see the lights of my hometown
I feel like the worlds stops spinning round
Everything makes sense
Maybe it's the innocence
I know it's just a few miles down the road
I'm getting there as fast as I can go
I can always find peace of mind
In the lights of my hometown

And though I've said goodbye
The best of me still lies inside
That city limit sign

I know its just a few miles down the road
I'm getting there as fast as I can go
I can always find
Peace of mind
In the lights of my hometown

i'm HOME (:

2007-12-04T01:22:00.000+11:00

2 MORE DAYS!!! :D

omgosh im so excited to go home!! (: it's exactly 57h till i get onto that plane and fly off for home sweet home ((: ahhh! even the plane ride will be funner thanks to the monkey and bear that i'll be sandwiched between haha

post-exam days have been goooood (: i LOVE the feeling of waking up not having a care - no more deadlines, no more revision packs/notes, no more rush rush stuff stuff everything you can into your brain! well, until next year. but that's a long way off (:
i was reading this Jodi Picoult book in borders over the last 2 days - Perfect Match. She's really a genius writer. amazing how she can has such insight

You are only as invincible as your smallest weakness,

and those are tiny indeed -

the length of a sleeping baby's eyelash, the span of a child's hand.

Life turns on a dime,

and - it turns out -

so does one's conscience.

that's the truth man. i love her books - it always takes you through a whole myraid of emotions. haha i felt like crying so many times while reading.. took 2 days and 2 original boost blueberry blasts to get through all 358pgs. good book man, good book.

poor sher still has m&c to go! she's been studying her ass off, so today jon calvin and i went to starbucks to accompany her. haha daitee all the way man.

"In today's ever changing world..."

hahaha

and later phaik wah joined us and of course with that, the bimbo moments abounded hehe. here's just one example =p

piakpiak: eh sher i just realised that you're very fair

jon: no she's not fair, she's unjust

piakpiak: unjust? what's unjust?

hahaha she thought unjust was a colour!!

and sher has her fair share too -

hellafump instead of heFFaLump

kazastahn instead of kazaKstahn

"the best place to find chinese food is chinatown"

hahhahaha that's great sher.

oh yeah jon just came in and reminded me what i orginally meant to do. pack. hahaha oh well.

anyway i just took this err semi-test, that i found on char's blog haha it's fun and im bored so sue me

IF YOUR LIFE WERE A MOVIE, WHAT WOULD THE SOUNDTRACK BE?

here's how it works:

1) open your library (iTunes, iPod, Media Player, Winamp etc)

2) put it on shuffle

3) press play

4) for every question, type the song that's playing

5) when you go to the next question, press the next button

dont lie and try to pretend you're cool...

01 - OPENING CREDITS: Stay With You – Goo Goo Dolls (haha cool, good start - what i'd like)

02 - WAKING UP: Twenty Three - Yellowcard (no relevance eh)

03 - FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL: I’ll Be – Edwin McCain (nice start too! haha)

04 - FALLING IN LOVE: Anything – The Calling (aww (: )

05 - FIGHT SONG: Take All Of Me - Hillsong (err not really)

06 - BREAKING UP: Chasing The Sun – The Calling (haha the songs corresponding with the romance questions are very.. apt. haha)

07 - PROM: Hollaback Girl – Gwen Stefani (woo! :D)

08 - LIFE: The Sweet Escape – Gwen Stefani ft Akon (haha well.)

09 - MENTAL BREAKDOWN: My Wish – Rascal Flatts (err, too nice a song.)

10 - DRIVING: Lucky You - Lostprophets (nice driving song!)

11 - FLASHBACK: Cry On My Shoulder - Overflow (aww this flashback would induce tears with such a song then)

12 - WEDDING: The Scientist - Coldplay (too sad!)

13 - BIRTH OF CHILD: Only Grace – Matthew West (wow, fitting)

14 - FINAL BATTLE: Your Glory – Planetshakers (HAHA indeed)

15 - DEATH SCENE: Holiday – Green Day (? hah)

16 - FUNERAL SONG: Forever Young – The Youth Group (oh the irony hahaha)

17 - END CREDITS: Suddenly I See – KT Tunstall (OOH! haha i wish la.)

anywayy

i really should get to packing. sigh.

okay laterrr! :D

2007-12-01T02:09:00.000+11:00

there is no planet sun or star could hold you, if you but knew what you are
- Ralph Waldo Emerson

EXAMS ARE OVER!! ((:
(sorry bio, e&d, physics and m&c ppl - im not rubbing it in, honest, just expressing my joy heh)
5 DAYS TO HOME!!!
ahh cant wait, cant wait :D

haha this was on sher's blog and apparently for me,

Your primary love language is probably
Quality Time
with a secondary love language being
Physical Touch

haha how this works is amazing. like, the 2 love languages are very present, here & now, kind. sooo.. haha i wonder how the long-distance thing works.. ah well

after the paper today we watched Gabriel! IT IS FANTASTIC. one of those movies that still leave you pondering over it like 30mins after you get out of the cinema. damn good storyline. but really dark.. which actually adds to the whole flavour of the movie. pluss.. Andy Whitfield is hot. seriously. he's like Tristan from Stardust! hahaha okay moving on

i've finally uploaded photos! from like july heh. i wanted to watch Heroes season 1 which i have on my comp, but stupid vaios have to screw up all the formats. SIGH. i would rather a mac than a vaio man. i love this post-exam feeling of like no pressure, no rush, no deadline to do anything (:
oh except i've gotta pack into boxes and move out of palmerston by wed.
cant wait to move into CS2 - out own apartment!! :D

i wanna be there in the pouring rain
i wanna be there when you call my name
im gonna light your fire, im gonna feel your flame
i wanna be there when you go insane

i wanna be there when im out of town
and when your whole damn world is crashing down
im gonna be your lover, gonna be your friend
gonna be there till the end, yeah

okay FRIENDS time! (:

<33

2007-11-28T09:54:00.000+11:00

strange mix of feelings im having as i study psych now early on this wednesday morning.
first time im up this early - chionging psych for my friday paper which we all have vowed to get 100% (or close at least).

ytd night was like reliving the term2 days where we would stay up till all sorts of crazy hours and practically talk the night away if we could. the turn of the conversation started to play on my mind, and the setting alr felt kinda foreign, what with the impending change of next year dawning.

i've never been good with change.

well, we'll just see how the story unfolds then

please God
Jesus i will never let You go

in other news,
8 days more till home!! (:

2007-11-25T11:48:00.000+11:00

11 days to home!!!

1 more paper to go!
the past week has been HORRIBLE. they are mean, seriously. how can you cram math, lit and hoi together on 3 consecutive days! major brain drain. but it's okay cos it's over now! oh but i think i gotta do this:
im soooo sorry for being snappy and grumpy the past few days while studying! i really dont mean it. it's just the stress+pms+tired, which i obviously didnt handle so well.. anyway, thank you guys for still being understanding and awesome(: im sorry and i love you guys!

yes anyway
my parents are in hk, my sister's at camp, and my brother's having sleepovers at my place. SO FUN EH! while im stuck with a week more to go sigh. but NO WORRIES. after that, i can have all the fun i want. oh wait but i have to pack up my room first. oh bother.
hah come to think of it, i think i might actually miss this place.. okay i shall get all nostalgic in a later entry, right now still need to study!

a thousand times i've failed
still Your mercy remains
and should i stumble again
im caught in Your grace

thank You Jesus (:

later!

<3

2007-11-17T00:31:00.000+11:00

last time in sec2.. or was it sec3? anyway, i was super hooked onto Good Charlotte - i loved every single song in their first album hahaha :D

if you want me to wait
i will wait for you
if you tell me to stay
i will stay right through
if you dont wanna say
anything at all
im happy wondering

actually not all these songs are lame and loud, depends really. haha i rmb last time in early sec3, i used to only listen to songs for the beat, or the speed. used to really cannot stand slow songs! haha until a friend made me realise that lyrics are the ones that make up the song. well duh. but yeah heh

well my last day in trinity is officially over. actually it was over on tuesday, but cos of all the drama performances, today is the official official last last day.
THE DRAMA PERFORMANCES WERE SO GOOD!! well, some. haha. im gonna hunt down alll the good ones man.
in the beginning of this year i rmb i hated drama like shit. haha every friday afternoon complain to no end, longing to skip that damn 1.5h of what seemed like torture to me. then the class began to open up, a new teacher took over and totally changed the atmosphere. and suddenly it became the class i looked forward to the most in the entire week! really, it's the people that make things better. drama has helped in many many ways - for one i think im less afraid of having to be in front of a crowd and speak/act now :D
mm actually im a little sad that our laaast drama performance is over. i love my group! haha we bitch and work, bitch and work, but get everything done in time anyway :D romeo, juliet, mona, lisa. <33

i can't believe that the year's just gone by like that and now we're all preparing for our finals! in term1 it seemed like the term would never end, then term2 it got easier, and soon it just began whooshing by. i wont say i regret anything from this year, cos everything happens (or doesnt happen) for a reason, but i know i have some new year resolutions planned out alr haha.
this year's been a real growing year. for one, i can kinda cook a little bit now. haha okay nvm not really but err yeah. haha learning, learning. in the aspect of my spiritual life, i've learned so much, gone through so many things with Him, and underwent different seasons in my walk with Him, in life. it's so cool how thru trials and/or testings He reveals a little bit more of Himself to you. if nothing else, this year has taught me to never let go of my Rock. honestly, there's nothing i'd rather be secure in, cos He will never let us down and is always there.

so the praying mother and the worried father
let your children go
if they come back
they'll come home stronger
and if they dont, you'll know

my study schedule is annoying. i tend to always lag after a few days nyeh. nvm i shall catch up. intensive study tmr! hopefully i'll be more inclined towards essays next year.. if not i might just faint doing arts. haha aiyaaa.. im quite excited for bball tmr morning (: havent exercised in forever.. i hope i dont collapse tmr with that minimal amount of exertion haha.

my best and my worst to you it don't matter
you can see through my flaws and keep lovin me
each day we spend together gets better
with you I can do anything
and I share it with you

okay i gotta wake up in 7h so goodnight! (:

<3

2007-11-11T22:30:00.000+11:00

you diggin' for info that you really dont wanna hear
you stirrin' the feelings that you know you cant really bear
so what if the answers you get reveal your biggest scare
now ask yourself if you're really prepared

haha such is human nature. got that surprisingly from shaggy ft. nicole scherzinger song.

sigh exams are coming.
drama is coming even faster.
prom is over.
practice and mug all day.
john bevere's sermon was awesome today!
i can do all things through Christ who strengthens me!

I hear you prayin'
Your dreams would be takin' you
Far from here, far away
So tired of waiting
Your heart must be breaking in two
While you do
With all the things in the world that you're trying to do
Does what I'm trying to say get thru
To you

I have a confession
For all your hard questions
The answers
May not seem clear
There's no use pretending
'Cause we're all out here spinning
Our wheels,
So it feels
Only one knows your heart, what you hope to become
Do you know who your running from?
Or to?

Wish that I could read your mind
Understand what you hide in your heart
Then maybe, baby, I could help you see how loved you are
Wish that I could find the words
That would echo inside of your soul
'Cause then, my friend, you'd know
He loves you so
God loves you so

My love is strong
But not strong enough
I'll give you all I have, it wouldn't matter that much
So instead of promises
I'll just be honest
'Cause I won't always be around
And I know my love could let you down

So

Wish that I could read your mind
Understand what you hide in your heart
Then maybe, baby, I could help you see how loved you are
Wish that I could find the words
That would echo inside of your soul
'Cause then, my friend, you'd know
God loves you so

dont bug me about blogging in song! haha it takes what i wanna say and compact it into 2 verses, 1 chorus and 1 bridge - tell me, what's better and more convenient than that? (:

anyway, i gtg mug again.
perservere!!

<33

home again in 3 weeks and 4 days!!! (:

2007-10-26T11:17:00.000+10:00

It's still the same side of the moon
That we'll be looking on when the world turns blue
And know that time and space can't come between me and you
We share the same side of the moon
And though you'll never see all my tears shine through
I know I can't be that far from you
If we're both looking on the same side of the moon

my iTunes are a little screwy, so i cant upload nice songs into my ipod ): im bored of my songs! nyeh. nvm dec will come soon and i'll settle all this technological rubbish. but for now, im discovering nice songs i never listen to in my ipod haha so oh well

i can't believe it's term4 alr! we've been through 3 terms, 3 term breaks, got thru uni applications, finally secured a place to stay next year, and now are moving towards our final exams.. wooahhhh. must buck up.

When the world has fallen out from under me
I'll be found in You, still standin'
When the sky rolls up and mountains fall on their knees
When time and space are through
I'll be found in You

"Are You Game?" has come and gone - it was AMAZING(: God works in awesome ways. even if it seems like there's wasnt anything shown for the effort put in, a seed has been planted. and it's up to Him now, in partnership with us of course :D
it's interesting how no matter how many times i've been told before, it still seems like whenever im reminded through a sermon, through my mum, through qt, through UL, through a friend, how much God loves me; there's always a new revelation to be found. i guess it just shows how uncontainable, how amazing His love for us is. there's just no word, no phrase, no paragraph, nothing at all that will do justice to how much our Dad in heaven loves us! i pray that we will continue experiencing His love anew every single day(:
honestly, a thousand days cannot compare to one day in Your courts (:

you know there are some things that no matter how old you grow, will continue to stay in your mind. like your principles, really significant experiences or events. yeah well, i guess this is one of those - this is why songs are so cool. haha. no expectations, no worries - i just thought

Maybe if I took a little time to talk then she'd,
Heal a little if she wants to,
She can run but let's teach her how to walk away now,
I'll shake a little if she wants to,
She'll laugh a little if she needs to,
There's a key to the door that she's hiding behind

hopefully! (:
anyway, time to go :D

catch you guys soon <33

later!

2007-10-11T01:20:00.000+10:00

From the highest of heights to the depths of the sea
Creation's revealing Your majesty
From the colors of fall to the fragrance of spring
Every creature unique in the song that it sings
All exclaiming

Indescribable, uncontainable,
You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name
You are amazing God
All powerful, untamable,
Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaim
You are amazing God

Who has told every lightning bolt where it should go
Or seen heavenly storehouses laden with snow
Who imagined the sun and gives source to its light
Yet conceals it to bring us the coolness of night
None can fathom

Indescribable, uncontainable,
You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name
You are amazing God
All powerful, untamable,
Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaim
You are amazing God

Incomparable, unchangable,
You see the depths of my heart
and You love me the same
You are amazing God

(:

dont focus on the size of the problem, change your perspective and focus on how big your God is instead(:

God loves you, i do too!

(:

2007-10-04T02:27:00.000+10:00

okay sorry i know im updating by songs again..
but so what - at least im updating! and this song is awesome.. plus songs say things. haha like my brother says : a song says a thousand words ;)

`

FM Static's Hey Now --

I met you at the club that night
Where I was spinning records
And my heart said
Hey now, hey now, hey now
Hey now

You said you were pleased to meet me
Through the sweet smell of your perfume
And blew me
Away now, away now, away now
Away now

Later on that week we went out
Talked under the stars until the next
Day now, day now, day now
Day now

You drank your Fruitopia
And we never ran out of things to
Say now, say now, say now
Say now

Every minute I'm not with you
I hope I'll see you soon
There's just something that happens
When you walk into the room

And instantly I feel so complete
It hits me right about the time you kiss my cheek
And you give me this feeling
It's like no other feeling
But it knocks me off my feet

Please don't ask me what I like about you
Cause it's every little thing you do
And that's just the way you make me feel

And I don't think
That there are any others out there like you
And I won't blink cause that would mean
I'd miss a second beside you

And maybe you know what I mean
Or maybe this is just a dream
I pinch myself just to make sure
But I'm still here and there you are

I wonder why we just met now
It just kind of happened somehow
But here we are together and
That's all that matters in the end

And instantly I feel so complete
It hits me right about the time you kiss my cheek
And you give me this feeling
It's like no other feeling
But it knocks me off my feet

Please don't ask me what I like about you
Cause it's every little thing you do
And that's just the way you make me feel

You can never ask for too much
Cause I'd travel the world just to feel your touch
And that's just the way you make me feel

`

that's it! (:
later <3

2007-09-28T19:12:00.000+10:00

we're living for the One who saved us
made us clean
Jesus, Your love is
everlasting, so unchanging
You have set me free

(:

2007-09-18T23:00:00.000+10:00

it's been awhile huh!

heh :D

anyway

thanks manymanymany to everyone who made my "sexy seventeenth" such an awesome one!! (though i still dont get why it's sexy haha) (: you guys know who you are - THANK YOU ALL I LOVE YOU!!! (:

in other news,

tim-tam cheescakes and mars cakes are seriously orgasmic. haha, no for real man.

and

i watched hairspray 2 times!! hehe. and the world keeps spinning round and round, and my heart's keeping time with the speed of sound...
<33 :D

and

there's only econs paper left to go!! then imma comin' homeeeee (:

FOUR DAYS MORE :D

anyhooo
see right, ytd we were all stressing out crazily trying to prep for our lit paper today. i reckon we spent about.. 6-7h? in total at starbucks getting down to business coming up with our 1500word essays.
so what'd you get when you have
8 17year olds + a highly stressed mindset in starbucks?

quoteS of the day!!

(doing lit in starbucks)

Montag is unhappy cos of his whatever face spasm thing and Akaky is unhappy cos he eats flies.
-me

i am unhappy. *chomp chomp chomp the air attempting to grab flies*
-sher

what's pubes? what's pubes?? (after getting a revelation) OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
-shiyou

me: (to sher) asshole!
jon: eh dont take away shiyou's title!

me: i think hiphop and r&b are my lit music
mh: you know what's mine? AMAZING GRACE :D

calvin: machiatTOTO??

mh: im very sad you know i lost my pencil.. you know last night i got so stressed over it.. i get really attached to my pencils.. it's been with me thru prelims and O levels you know.. can you help me buy another one when you go back??

mh: i feel like we're in a court! everything i say you type down

(during our asshole-taitee break)

sy: im gonna be a fricking asshole

calvin: when the sun sets i will be president
me: you think you vampire ah

(back to studying)

mh: does coffee make you hungry?
me: nooo.. it usually fills ppl up?
mh: HUH REALLLYYYYYY.. BUT IM SO HUNGRY! i want to eat sth.. i feel like getting sth..
chinese.
me: err.. quiche? it's kinda like.. chinese egg tarts!

calvin: yeah you get body spasms when you're cold or you need to pee
me: except mh gets them when someone hits her chest

mh: (cos calvin kept throwing beans at her and me) NO VIOLENCE AGAINST WOMEN! cos the bean is a female..

calvin: you have to stroke the coffee bean slowly if not it will turn smelly

JON AND CALVIN ARE ANNOYING COS THEY THROW COFFEE BEANS AT PEOPLE.

oh one time a coffee bean got stuck in jon's hair and he couldn't find it for awhile HAHA.

reina: you mad ah are you gonna club from 7pm.
mh: haha 7pm you're the only one on the dance floor

mh: i cant think anymore.. so im just gonna think first..

(back home)

sy: in mg right all my intros and conclusions were like one line each!
me: yeah in mg it was like 'be concise girls, get to the point' but here it's like 'be flowery, write
alot, we love reading your bullshit'

mh: oh no it's 10 o'clock! i die.

mh: im so tired it's not even funny

~

hahaha and hence ends our interesting day.

okay i have been slacking long enough time to go conquer econs! :D

see you guys sooon!

<33

later

2007-09-03T03:12:00.000+10:00

do you remember
why i walked on the water for you
do you remember
my first steps on the moon
have you ever wondered why
i gave 3 wishes to you
you ask the question
but the answer lies in you

haha debbie will know where this is from. shh deb. dont reveal our secret ah. suddenly felt a nostalgic twinge. ah who'm i kidding. im damn homesick i want to go home now.
it's strange cos my family's here - it should be easing the homesickness, but it's actually fuelling it.

if i could find you now
things would get better

there's no place like home, there's no place like home..
okay i should quit whining. it's only 2 weeks more! but there's drama performance/exam, and econs math and lit exams.
so tired know, and frustrated. how much more?
but yet i know it's all in His time.
my Father in heaven knows best, so im just gonna trust Him. despite everything, i will still sing!
oh, today in shakers was the live recording - awesome! even more awesome than usual! praise God (:

all my praise
goes to the One
who made a way
who saved the day

:D

"i can do all things through Christ who gives me strength."

hahaha sth very funny happened on friday night to saturday morning :

shermaine heng fell asleep on audrey's bed at 11pm. she woke up at 1am and told me that she'd be coming over soon. (bunking over) and i was awake till 3am then accidentally locked my room door and went to sleep. the pig awoke at 5am cos of various reasons and decided to come over to sleep - but my door was locked, and grace was in her bed. hence resulting in the following sms -- "shit debs you locked the door i am now bedless!" HAHAHA. seriously man. so the poor girl spent the next 5h going online vs-ing, facebook-ing, blogging, etc until 10am when i finally woke up read the sms and opened the door hahahahahah

alright it's like 330 and that same pig is probably still vs-ing im gonna crash first.

later (:

2007-08-28T22:47:00.000+10:00

i give my all to You
send me and i will go for You
to the ends of the earth
i'll follow after you
i want the world to know
Your love endures forever

tell me and i'll obey
this is far greater than sacrifice
trusting You and not myself
will always lead to blessing
Lord have Your way in me
not my will Yours be done

here i stand within Your presence
longing for Your touch
a thousand days cannot compare
to one day in Your courts
hold me now
and never ever let me go
my Jesus
my precious Saviour
im forever Yours

i will worship You forever
i will worship You

---

ALL ESSAYS DONE!!! :D
finallyyyyy :D
to celebrate, sher jon calvin reina me watched "i now pronounce you chuck and larry" ytd at hoyts! HAHA FUNNY MAN. but there were tear-jerking moments too.. (shuddap spermaine.) haha the last part was the best though - when calvin and jon started being influenced by the show.. hahaha

okay this term is seriously insane. after like 3 weeks of essays, now have to start studying for exams! nyeh.. no time!! but i'll still reply mails - err except i cant rmb who i owe.. please tell me if i owe you an email okay! heh

papa mummy mei boy ahkong ahma are coming on sunday! HOW EXCITING! they're gonna get a chance to check out the live recording at shakers!! :D so funnn. cant wait to see them ((:

okay anw i shall go be good and attempt to understand econs. oh and eat my nutella french toast :D

later!

2007-08-20T03:01:00.000+10:00

“Make no small plans…for they have not the power to stir men’s blood.” - Niccolo Machiavelli

i like that quote (:

sigh okay just thought i 'd share that - and now back to psych. i swear i wont be so last minute ever again.

oh oh before that
let me make a public apology:

IM SO SORRY FOR NOT BEING ABLE TO EMAIL/REPLY EMAILS FOR SUCH A LONG TIME OF LIKE err..3WEEKS! MY ESSAYS WILL BE FINISHING SOON I'LL BE UN-NERDED SOON!! :D
LOVE YOU GUYS HEAPS!!

okay now really back to psych. it's freaking 3 in the morning. jon mh sher are in my room and we're chiong-ing. rarr. Jesus help us!

laterrr

2007-08-13T01:36:00.000+10:00

the time now is 1348
supposed to be doing my psych essay now
however as seen from my previous post
im the world's best procrastinator HAHA

jon just cooked some kangaroo meat!
YUMYUM (:
super nice
im quite the carnivore. total meat-lover!l
amb, beef, kangaroo, chicken, pork, duck..
haha next on the menu would be crocodile meat! :D
scott's eaten rabbit meat before haha mei would be so maaad.

i just found out that macs are damn cool.
they're like ipod laptops!
and much better than vaios.
and they dont have any viruses configured for them.
and there's an inbuilt camera with all the cool effects! sheeesh
sigh so totally should've gotten a mac
.too bad im such an IT retard hahaha

papa's coming over tmr! ((:
gonna be checking out apartments soon.
cant believe imma be living on my own next year alr! insane.
anw, with papa here im gonna get some good food! (:
and go shopping!! country roadddd :D
more jeans. and spring tops which are not old school tees.
haha happy spermaine heng?

-this just took place-
(jon whacks lift bottle on my head)
jon: oh wait i should not do that becos i'll be killing more brain cells. but then you only have like 10 left HAHA
me: EHHHH. (give jon killer look)
mh: (trying not to smile/laugh)
jon: (to mh)why your face l ike that
me: OH LAUGH LA
mh: no no! if she has only 10 cells they're very biiiig cells!
HAHAHA

would you want me
when im not myself
wait it out while i was someone else

eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep- jon (for jigglypuff AKA deb)

oh whatever. the only reason im not deleting that is cos IM NICE.

jon: yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeea surrrrrrrrrrrrrrreeeeeee. HAHA

anyway national day was so fun!

13 people at chom chom
12 glasses drank between jon & calvin
11 o'clock reprimanding from youknowwho heh
10 hiccups by me sheesh
9 august!
8 girls bopping to 'gimme that' HAHA
7 o'clock dinner
6 wine glasses
5 times ppl tried to whack mh's chest hahahaha
4 guys swaying to 'yeah' HAHAHA
3 kinds of alcohol tried
2 bottles
1 class ponned the next day hahaha
0 unhappy ppl! :D (if you dont count the neighbours - so says jon heh)

fun fun :D

anywayyyy
okay now back to psych essay cos it's almost 1500 and we gotta leave for churchin 2h rraaaarrr
later! (:

i need You
more than life itself
Jesus i will worship You
forevermore

2007-08-12T02:06:00.000+10:00

even though i dont usually do these things, i have been accused of not updating properly, and have also been tagged by veen to do this test thingy therefore here it is! haha

each person has to name 10 weird habits/facts about themselves. then at the end, you gotta tag 6 other friends and they gotta do the quiz too. no tagging back!

10. i can memorise a piece of music - lyrics, chords, transitions and all - faster than i can memorise a page of notes/work HAHA
9. im a very sentimental person(not emo, senti. haha), and get homesick pretty easily - though it gets better with time. (haha actually i think most ppl know that. im such a wuss haha)
8. im the world's best.. err worst? procrastinator. honestly, i can put off a piece of work given a month before and do it like the night before. but im improving. i hope. haha
7. i need alot of personal space, like alone time
6. i looovveeee footwear. like real shoes. haha not those pumps that everyone's wearing nowadays. sneakers! converse! adidas nike keds.. and slippers! havis! haha okay moving on
5. starbucks is my second home woohoo :D
4. songs are my way of remembering significant times in my life and i like placing different songs for different ppl/incidents/times/ you get the idea haha
3. after meals, i like to burp out loud ahhhaha (im sure most of you have experienced that before :D)
2. i love bright-ish colours, eg. orange, light green, light blue, on my notes, around my room and basically stuff i own (:
1. i'd rather hang out at home(singapore home, not this shithostel) in my slacks "that are so baggy until can keep chickens inside" (according to mummy haha) than anything else actually haha

and the 6 lucky ppl are:
MU
SHER
JAKE(maybe this will get you blogging again haha)
CHAR
LIZAMIZA
MINGTEE

:D

there ya go i updated hah.

cos it's you and me
and all of the people
with nothing to do
nothing to prove
and it's you and me
and all of the people
and i dunno why
i cant keep my eyes off of you

itinerary:
1 EAP assignment
1 Psych essay
1 HOI essay
drama stuff

ehhh

haha okay im out

later!

2007-08-11T02:52:00.000+10:00

happy belated national day, singapore!!

haha fun fun national day woohoo (:
even though it was in the wrong country haha

it's time!

you're a falling star
you're the getaway car
you're the line in the sand
when i go too far

you're the swimming pool
on an august day
and you're the perfect thing to say

and you play it coy
but it's kinda cute
oh, when you smile at me
you know exactly what you do
baby dont pretend
that you dont know it's true
cos you can see it when i look at you

and in this crazy life
and thru these crazy times
it's you, it's you
you make me sing
you're every line
you're every word
you're everything

you're a carousel
you're a wishing well
and you light me up
when you ring my bell
you're a mystery
you're from outer space
you're every minute of my everyday

and i cant believe
that im your man
and i get to kiss you baby
just becos i can
whatever comes our way
we'll see it thru
and you know
that's what our love can do

and in this crazy life
and thru these crazy times
it's you, it's you
you make me sing
you're every line
you're every word
you're everything

you're every song
that i sing along
yeah
cos you're my everything (:

LATER!

2007-08-03T22:47:00.000+10:00

strange it's august already

this year's been really fast - and unlike other years, it's been easier to break it up. but yet i still cant catch onto all the moments, cant comprehend how it all just went by
guess cos of all the flying back and forth between s'pore and aus. and even so it's so fast! the holidays feel like they're over in just a breath.
i know i constantly talk about time but the clock's really ticking man; for all of us here(at least the us that doesnt need to go for army next year haha), uni year1 is just around the corner next year woowww

so life is back as usual - the normal school, come back chill awhile and attempt to do some work but end up just chatting in the end it's quite bad i've really gotta have some discipline
Psych and HOI essay in 2 weeks +
important!!
i miss my naggers ):
it's becoming quite mundane.. and the cold is really getting annoying. on the days that i wrap up it gets hotter, and on the days i decide to wear a thin jacket, just 2 layers and havis the wind blows like nobody's business and the temperatures drop sheeeesh
cant wait for spring in september!!

papa's coming in 1+weeks! cant wait yay (: country road here i come!! i havent shopped at all yet this term man. the last time i shopped was with mummy in s'pore during the break! i need/want more stuff haha. i suddenly really miss my family.
MEI, I HOPE YOU'RE FEELING BETTER! jiejie loves you and is proud of you congrats for your prize (:
&
BOY, CONGRATS FOR YOUR IMPROVING SCORE! very proud of you kiddo (: one day i'll play with you la okay. haha or you can just drive me around in the buggy :D love you boyboy!

change is inevitable
it's like term3 is THE time
time for what?
time to make a move, time to start sth new, time for decisions, time to learn more things, time to realise.
consider, please. consider.
but whatever it is i'll be standing behind you all the way

in other news, my stupid vaio is spoilt. my new vaio is spoilt. the spacebar wont freaking work and i've 3essays to do. so now im using my family friend's dell. which is like ancient. like a dell`97 or sth. and the spacebar works too well. hence all the double spacings at times. or cos im so anal there probably arent anymore haha

sigh
i miss you ):

okay time to start work

laterrr

2007-07-26T21:17:00.000+10:00

just a quick post cos im in the middle of doing sth but feel that this is an important message that everyone needs to hear which i got out of an awesome Urban Life last night (: ...

Jesus loves you
do you know?
cos the bible tells you so
little ones to Him belong
we are weak
but He is strong

yes, Jesus loves you
yes, Jesus loves you
yes, Jesus loves you
the bible tells you so

adapted from:

Jesus loves me
this i know
for the bible tells me so
little ones to Him belong
they are weak
but He is strong

yes, Jesus loves me
yes, Jesus loves me
yes, Jesus loves me
the bible tells me so

~

this is really an important revelation, my friends.
meditate on it tonight and see what God has to tell you and i pray that you will be as blessed by what He has to say, as i have been greatly blessed (:

shalom

2007-07-17T02:14:00.000+10:00

thank You God for giving me those 5 extra days, and for planning out my time for me everyday. thank You for the friends and family that You've blessed me with and i pray that You bless them and keep them close to You. Lord thank You for giving me so much and more than i could ever think of! Father You truly are a gracious God, and i thank You for Your amazing love for us. such love that none of us can truly fathom. love that You were willing to sacrifice it all for us. Father i love You and thank You for every every every thing(: Amen!

so im back in melbourne! it's alright(: like a friend pointed out : it's never good being in your comfort zone. time to step out once again! it'll be cool to see what He has in store for me this term haha it's gonna be chock full of surprises again i bet!

even though im back here, im still thinking about all you guys back home(: let's recap a bit with some err haha quotes

no, i am very universally earful
- mei (on defending herself after i accused her of having selective hearing HAHA)

just smile and nod your head - dont blow your cover!
- lionel (on what to do if you dont actually know what's going on ahhaha)

AND

thank you my godsis for coming over so late that night just to say bye and to pass me that AWESOME SUPER SWEET pres (: im wearing it all over the place now! but on my wrist heh. i love it and i love you! :D
thank you cousin pinky for coming over late that night too (: and for canon in C which is very very nice i am going to upload it into my ipod soon! and for the very sweet postcard. love you very much (:
thank you for sending me off my tweedy friend (: even though i told you not to come, it was very very sweet and thoughtful (: dont emo okay! and one day we will be able to go shopping for real :D hehe. love you loadsss
thank you deb & family for coming even though i'd gone in alr! thankfully managed a last glimpse and a wave! (: <33

and there are so many others to thank just for taking time out and just hanging, for the meaningful conversations and interesting adventures haha. loved every single minute spent with all of youuu!

so between now and then
till i see you again
i'll be loving you
love,
me (:

2007-07-12T02:36:00.000+10:00

He's able
He's able
i know He's able
i know my God is able
to carry me through!

GOD IS GOOD!! (:

kay i promised God i'd blog about His awesomeness if He answered my prayer (not a very good bargain, but i was really really desperate heh).. so here it is! :D

part1:
originally, my flight back to s'pore was for the 2nd of july. it isnt bad, but it does cut off alot of time when i could've come back earlier - 1 or 2 days is no joke when there are so many ppl you wanna meet up with! somemore it was over the weekend which meant i could go to church one extra time! so i was really praying super duper hard for God to let me fly back on the 1st. i wasnt counting so much on the 30th cos i know flights are really really booked. all through the exams as i did QT, proclaiming God's promises and putting all my faith in Him became a daily choice. then in the evening of my last paper my phone rang.. IT WAS MY DAD SAYING I HAD A FLIGHT ON THE 30TH BACK HOME!! (:
God is amazing. He gives us above and beyond what we hope and wish for, if only we care to ask Him and have faith that through Him, all things are possible.
part2:
the flight back to melb was scheduled to be the midnight between tmr and fri. suuuper soon. i was really feeling super crappy cos it was like such a short time to be back. so throughout the week, i had been committing all this to God and family and friends were praying too. it was quite a struggle to refuse any negative thought and just focus on His power and His ability to do anything and everything. then today my dad called in the afternoon : I'D GOTTEN A FLIGHT ON SUNDAY NIGHT EXTENDING MY STAY IN S'PORE 3 WHOLE DAYS!! (:
God is really awesome. He is amazingly gracious and blesses so much and so willingly! it just takes faith.

thank You God (:
im just so psyched that He actually extended my holiday for 5 extra days than the designated time. (:

my God is so big
so strong and so mighty
there's nothing my God cannot do
for you!

yeahh (:

later!

2007-07-11T00:03:00.000+10:00

birds of a feather
flock together
no matter the weather
together forever

hahahahahahahahaha

kelly: you want the meatball marina..
me: ?? haha noo
kelly: aye wait wait, marinana
me: !! hahahaha!
kelly: haha no wait! marinuhra

HAHAHA

this week started off awesomely and it's been going absolutely great(:

i love i love((:

buffet asian brunch
stealing bits of time
subways, cam-whoring & night-walking
drumming, highly-overdue movie, chilling by the pool
coffee club & mudpies

seems like time is never enough - i know i keep saying this, but it's really insane you know
seriously just think about it man, just last year this time
we were just preparing for our prelims!
and here we are now
in jc, in poly, overseas..
madness
haha
well
whatever im just having a blast now(:

i love you! (:

let's waste time
chasing cars
around our heads
i need your grace
to remind me
to find my own

if i lay here
if i just lay here
would you lie with me
and just forget the world
forget what we're told
before we get too old
show me a garden that's bursting into life

later(:

2007-07-06T13:37:00.000+10:00

i'll be your crying shoulder

i'll be love's suicide

i'll be better when im older

i'll be the greatest fan of your life

my heart is reaching out

more then you will ever know

is your burden too much

is it more then you can bear

i'll help carry the load

if you're willing to share

always picking up

and thinking 'bout leaving

once you stick around then

that's when

i'll show you

happiness the world cant see

that's how love should be

with only two

just me and you

not so many things we got to do

or places we got to see

we'll sit beneath the mango tree now

yeah, it's always better when we're together

we're somewhere in between together

well, it's always better when we're together

yeah it's always better when we're together

and it's so sad

you're so good and im so bad

but you wont see me wasting

the best thing i've ever had

and it's such a shame

that i cant tell you anything

you wont hear me

still you endear me now

i guess i kinda thought it would be easier than this

i guess i was wrong now one more time

and im so unprepared

but you dont seem to care

and i, i've been running to nowhere

you're nowhere, you're nowhere

and i, i feel something's getting clear

come clearer, come clearer

why do you build me up, buttercup

baby just to let me down

mess me around

and then worst of all

you never call baby when you say you will

but i love you still

i need you

more than anyone darling

you know that i have from the start

so build me up, buttercup

dont break my heart

i'll be there for you
when the rain starts to fall
i'll be there for you
like i've been there before
i'll be there for you
cos you're there for me too

```

there's not much to do or say really

yeah well, that's just the way it goes

later

2007-07-04T15:00:00.000+10:00

flashback to warm nights
almost left behind
a suitcase of memories
time after some time

ahhh im baaaack ((:

i love being back in s'pore!! although the weather and bugs annoy me, the pros faaarrrr outweight the cons. haha and may i just say i have the funniest most retarded(in a good way heh) friends ever. and sister. haha here are some examples:

on sunday i was out with my sis, and she was trying to find out which toilet cubicle i was in (dont ask.) and she deduced this information by hearing "this loud plonking of bags"
hahahahaha
that's great mei

then there was the incident of "the curse of the black pearl" on monday with mu and bubble tea. HAHA. need i say more? and washing up in what was possibly the dodgiest toilet in the world. honestly man. haha and then cam-whoring inside that same dodgy toilet for awhile. hahahaha

and of course ytd night the dinner at heeren's vil'age or vila'ge (haha).
nat: daniel so cute! really man, daniel's so cute!
-brief pause while everyone is laughing their guts out-
daniel: orh.
HAHAHA
and ivee's squeaks! deafening. eee. haha
amandaaaa!! ding dong it is good to have you back. hahahaha
nat: amanda you need to come back more often so i have someone to tease - i cant tease anyone else alr! cos (goes around to say why) .. and daniel's too cute!!
hahahahaha

okay i cannot rmb alr. haha everyone send me photos okay! :D
i am a very happy girl (:

bouncing round from cloud to cloud
i got the feeling
like im never gonna come down
if i said i didnt like it
then you know i'd lied

<3<3<3!

later(:

2007-06-23T20:15:00.000+10:00

haha okay quote of the day :
(dont ask why we were discussing this)

me: why is being gay so bad ah?
jon: err err err.. cos God didnt make adam and bob.

HAHAHAHAHA

okay yes super random

ahahahaha omgosh minghuei just made this damn weird noise and looked like she had body spasms hahaha! okay nvm

EAP's over! now for psych math lit and econs. nyeh.

BE BACK IN 9 DAYS! :D

later!

2007-06-20T13:59:00.000+10:00

moving on isnt forgetting.
it's not about just getting on with your life as if the old times had never happened..
but rather it's about remembering the memories with a smile,
holding them out with an open palm
and not clinging too tightly to what's past
cos if you do..
you may just end up being left behind,
stranded in the realm of memories when everyone else is living in reality

sometimes it's good to feel detached.
i guess?
gives a clearer perspective i suppose
but also, and more importantly
it gives you a chance to experience new things
without the past holding you back
to learn from them and all the new ideas and views -
but not too detached though
if not
it'll feel like it wasnt even there at all
attach yourself just enough to go back
and bring back with you whatever you've learnt

maybe

so indefinite and unsure

perhaps it's just a thought
or maybe trying to convince?

whatever it is

i love you, will always love you no matter what.

in every circumstance, i will praise.

my God He made a way
my God He saved the day
forever
we will shout Your praise
this world will fade away
but Your word remains
forever
Jesus
we will shout Your praise

we shout Your praises
God of all ages
my life is found in You!

later(:

2007-06-18T19:33:00.000+10:00

we're living for a God who saved us
a destiny
a hope that's found in truth
a hope that's found in You

You walk before my fears and failures
my heart cries out
this life i give to You
this life i live for You

ALL my praise goes
to the One
who made a way
who saved the day

my God He made a way
my God He saved the day
forever
we will shout
Your praise
this world will fade away
but Your Word remains
forever
Jesus we will
shout Your praise!!

(:

```

it's
time for exams
time for winter
time for mugging
time for eating lots of crap
time for focussing
time for praising

haha i guess that basically sums up my day.

winter is such a dreary season seriously. the days start getting dark at an early hour of 1630. everyone's feeling so tired and sluggish. ('slugslugsluggedyslug' haha) we have to literally drag ourselves out of bed just to get to school on time. nyeh. used to looove winter. but now i realise i only love winter when im there for a short period of time like on holiday, otherwise - no thanks. i'd rather have spring or autumn.

first paper's in less than a week! on saturdayyy. aiyo. no mood to study, honestly. but i shall persevere. yes. nyehh.. they should really give us 3 month winter break and 3 month summer break. too cold and dark to study, & too hot to study. haha :D

okay nvm i shall stop griping and get on with it!

oh quote of the day for ytd, sunday 17/06/07, haha jon to sher :
"sher, i bow down to your superior omelette cooking skills"

hahahaha.

yum.
been eating sooo much lately! all the meegorengs and omelettes and cereals and pasta and steak! all homemade man :D okay fine, not me but yeah. heh

okay see ya i shall do math, psych and lit tonight. WOOHOO.

later! (:

2007-06-12T19:26:00.000+10:00

haha my last post said bum time.. now it's EXAM TIME!
groan.. how annoying - to get home we always have to finish exams first. okay nvm we will get thru!

so Beautiful Woman just ended - AWESOME TIME. (:
nothing is impossible for You!

haha okay anyway, here are (finally) some pics! :D

haha okay blogger sucks i have no idea how to arrange the stupid pictures. anyway so the first 5 pics are at Beautiful Woman! with my fantastic urban life :D

6th one is what we cooked! yes, cooked! haha PANCAKES!! yumyum :D

7th is my dear minghuei -SLEEPING DURING LIT LECTURE HAHA. and the 8th is minghuei's ambition hahahaha. oh and sher's too haha

and the 9th is when my family came over to melbourne ((:

okay lastly, this picture is an example of a subliminal message on a bottle of perfume - go check it out and see if you guys can spot the subliminal message :

haha okie dokie. my urban life's here gtg! :D

later!

2007-06-01T20:33:00.000+10:00

IT'S OFFICIALLY WINTER!!

(according to shiyou's EAP teacher anyway)

haha so fun! my first winter without my family. today's temperature was 4-14 degrees! haha how awesome. thank goodness for the great shopping that i did with mummy when she came :D hehe so im nice and warm and happy! (:

okay i should stop updating so much and start studying.
BUT i just finished HOI! so no working tonight, gonna be watching 'My Big Fat Greek Wedding' WOOHOO :D
oh and thank you calvin and shiyou for buying puffy's back for us!!! (: soooo yummy.

okie doke
BUM TIME STARTS NOW!

see ya ;)

later!

2007-05-31T18:17:00.000+10:00

You
pick me up
when
i am down
and
on my own

You
hold my hand
and
lead me on
in
to Your grace

whenever i cry out You hear me
whenever i fall down You hold me

hold me
never let me go
change me
i want the world to know
You are living in me
God i know
You'll never let me go

no You'll never let me go!

i
want to live
for
You my God
You
are my all

God
help me stand for
You each day
and
be Your voice

whenever i cry out You hear me
whenever i fall down You hold me
whenever i stand up You're with me
cos i have Your Spirit living in me

hold me
never let me go
change me
i want the world to know
You are
living in me
God i know
You'll never let me go

hold me (never let me go)
hold me (never let me go)
hold me (never let me go)
Jesus, never let me go!

hear me when im crying out
You put my feet on solid ground
catch me when im falling down
God i know
You'll never let me go!

```

yesterday was our kinda last time as a full Urban Life - starting from the next time we have UL, we're gonna be split into 2 alr, based on ages.
it's always hard when "goodbyes" are involved.
well at least there's still church!

i think i should stop ponning classes. sanne said that they actually check subject by subject whether you go for at least 80% and for econs and maths.. im waaay below. heh. okay starting next week onwards im not skipping anymore lessons anymore!

but sometimes, skipping lessons can be quite productive! like ytd, i didnt go for math and just sat in lygon court with minghuei doing the hoi essay for like. 4h straight. SO PRODUCTIVE! i think that was the first time this year i really really concentrated so much. so yeah im almost done (:

it's quite bad i realise that as we.. well, as i grow older, it's not a focus more and study alot kind of situation. rather it's a focus less, become less hardworking and study just enough kind of thing. that's bad. which is why i say that if i were to go back to the s'pore system (ie. jc) i would die. honestly, i hardly do any work here. oh shit haha i think i better start getting serious. exams in 3 weeks!

strangely enough, i miss the "scoldings" that i used to get cos of my lax attitude. (haha especially before bio in sec3. and then for my not doing hw in sec4 haha) i dunno, guess even though it was just naggy then, it just shows how much they care. that they bother to check up on me, bother to chase me and push me to do my best. okay im not totally bad - i do have some self-motivation, which is the little that keeps me up perfecting my essays or notes or whatever haha.

been feeling quite homesick these past few days - i have a feeling partly because of pms, but also i really really miss everyone back home.. it's not too bad this term, like i said, at least im not counting down the days to go home now, but yeah i cant wait! (: but first have to get through the damn exams. 90%!

today in lit we were talking about edited truth and principles/morals.
it's really quite interesting - i love lit lessons they make me think so much more. oh and i heard that in j.barlow's hoi tute they were debating justification of the death sentence - right? or wrong? and poor lawrence was against 13 people in his tute! honestly, i wouldnt know how to answer. i mean, put aside all that crap about post-modernism thinking and limitation of resources for awhile and seriously consider it. an eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth? is justice done by eliminating the mastermind of the crime? OR who are we to play God and decide when to end someone's life and decide that we are the ones who should make the person pay? does not all judgement belong to God? a death does not right another death, and injustice does not right injustice. oh i rmb char did this topic once! it was a good piece i rmb, really impressive. haha

okay about edited truths, isnt that in essence a lie? this wasnt in class, cos during class i was too stoned to say much (i slept thru my alarm and didnt hear it at all so i woke up at 835 for a 9 class haha). i mean, i guess we do it because we dont want to present the whole harsh truth of reality, but then we're deciding for whoever we're interacting with that he/she cannot handle the truth. it's very confusing i cant sort it out completely. and if we're hiding stuff from the person, does that mean we dont trust them completely? or just that we really wanna spare them the hurtful/gross/painful details? puzzling..
and then there's principles. i read somewhere that if you decide what your principles are before the time of testing, you're a fool. but i believe that if you dont stand for something, you'll fall for everything! okay here's a scenario in the book : someone hands you a gun and with that gun you can save a whole bunch of people, but your principle is that it is wrong to murder. so how? defy your principles and kill a few, saving the many; or stand for your principles and let them die? my teacher was like 'the commandment should be rewritten from "thou shalt not kill" to "thou shalt not kill, EXCEPT..." haha.
i wish i could ask God these questions.

okay gtg now - DiMattina's lamb calls(:

later!

2007-05-27T03:26:00.000+10:00

my parents & bro have left for home alr ):
but it was an awesome time while they were here! (:

pirates3! 2240-0140. awesome!! i love POTC(: especially last year's.. for more than one reason.

went running today! i feel so accomplished. hahaha. better start making it a habit. need to lose weight. grr.

st kilda's that night was awesome(: went back ytd night to celebrate mummy's bday - great as usual! i love(: maybe pictures the next time haha.

okay it's 0330 now im very sleepy goodnight!

later

2007-05-17T23:15:00.000+10:00

here is a post full of random stuff

my Saviour
He's living in me
Redeemer
JESUS!
He set me free!

urban life rocks! (: cant wait for Beautiful Woman! it's gonna be such an awesome amazing time!! and next week scott's gonna cook lamb for us! YEAHHH! heh. and church this sunday! nicky boy is gonna get to experience what true worship is :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JON!
oysters are actually quite yummy. :D haha havent eaten one in like. years. but tonight tried one on account of the birthday boy and it turned out to be actually quite yummy! haha and lovely lamb risotto(: with chardonnay and freddo's durian nutella and frutti de bosco - pandan with coconut aka kaya is really nice too!

minghuei has trouble controlling her stomach - eating up to 1.5h at a go! hahaha. she has spent about 5days on her hoi essay plan and is currently in bed lazing the night away when she was supposed to have finished it by 10. (it's now 1120) hahaha oh yeah and she also this philosophy on the pussycatdolls :
"there's only one that sings; the rest just make sounds and touch themselves" - minghuei 530pm melbourne central at the japanese crepe shop watching the pcd music vids that were playing
HAHAHAHA anything you say, sheepy :D i love you anyway hahaha

im done with hoi essay plan and eap hoi para now all that's left is 2 silly paragraphs for hoi left due next tuesday sigh

HAHA THIS CONVO JUST TOOK PLACE WHILE I WAS TYPING ABOUT HOI --

minghuei(on hearing that i posted the pcd incident) : zaiii are you niceeee...
me: yeahhhh:D
minghuei: thennnn.. delete the paragraph!
me: nooooo:D
minghuei: WHYYYY! nice ppl delete paragraphs
me: HAHAHAHA
minghuei: ehhhh... im gonna drown myself in...
melissa: NUTELLA!
minghuei: NO! waterrr...
~a few seconds later~
minghuei: eh i really thought your stuffed tiger has ear wax!
shiyou melissa me: ?!?!?!?!
minghuei: no because ah (points to stuffed tiger's ears) the brown seams!
shiyou melissa me: HAHAHAHAHAHA

oh man, minghuei. hahaha we love you! :D

okay that's enough now, gonna do math!

later! :D

2007-05-13T11:03:00.000+10:00

Since the moment I spotted you
Like walking around with little wings on my shoes
My stomach's filled with the butterflies
And it's alright

Bouncing round from cloud to cloud
I got the feeling like I'm never going to come down
If I said I didn't like it then you know I'd lied

Everytime I try to talk to you
I get tongue-tied
Turns out everything I say to you
Comes out wrong and never comes out right

So I say why don't you and I get together
Take on the world and be together forever
Heads we will, tails we'll try again
So I say why don't you and I hold each other
Fly to the moon and straight on to heaven
Cause without you they're never going to let me in

When's this fever going to break?
I think I've handled more than any man can take
I'm like a love-sick puppy chasing you around
And it's alright

Bouncing round from cloud to cloud
I got the feeling like I'm never going to come down
If I said I didn't like it then you know I'd lied

Everytime I try to talk to you
I get tongue-tied
Turns out everything I say to you
Comes out wrong and never comes out right

So I say why don't you and I get together
Take on the world and be together forever
Heads we will, tails we'll try again
So I say why don't you and I hold each other
Fly to the moon and straight on to heaven
Cause without you they're never going to let me in

Slowly I begin to realize this is never going to end
Right about the same time you walk by
And I say 'Oh here we go again'

Everytime I try to talk to you
I get tongue-tied
Turns out everything I say to you
Comes out wrong and never comes out right

So I say why don't you and I get together
Take on the world and be together forever
Heads we will, tails we'll try again
So I say why don't you and I hold each other
Fly to the moon and straight on to heaven
Cause without you they're never going to let me in

~

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!!
i love you mummy(:

so it's sunday morning - first time in melbourne im awake before noon on a sundayyyy. and why? cos of HOI. 1200words of why Sparta declined although it was the leader of the Greeks in 5th century BC. interesting, but veeery wordy. grr. ah well it's not too bad i guess - like sanne said, it's preparation for uni life so shouldnt complain! at least it's only essay plan. im done with psych notes! :D that, unlike this, is fun.

this week has been really fun! shiyou and diane just had their birthdays! many dinners and celebrations for our newly turned seventeens! seriously, time is speeding along. this morning i accidentally knocked into my windchimes which a friend gave me for my 15th bday. and i realised. that was 2years ago! TWO! but it also seemed like yesterday. but anyway.
the term is moving smoothly along and it's becoming much easier now to like adjust and all - im not like counting down the days to go home anymore or stuff like that, and it's just one life for me right now even though there's singapore and australia. haha okay dunno whether i made sense or not but oh well. not to say that it's not tough anymore, each day/week/month/term presents it's own set of issues that i gotta work out but in the end i know it's gonna be okay cos im on the side of the One who wins the battle in the end so yay! :D sometimes i need little reminders though. haha.

can we take a ride
get outta this place
while we still have time

im totally hooked onto that santana featuring nickelback song up there!! been wanting that song since i was p6 or sth i think! IT'S FINALLY IN MY POSSESSION!!! :D haha <33 such a nice catchy cool song. haha. i think my music taste has mellowed quite a bit. not listening much to good charlotte, the click5, the all american rejects and all the punk rock stuff, kinda moving in the direction of jack johnson, john mayer, tyler hilton, rascal flatts and oldies. haha not 90.5FM kind of oldies but sweet songs, instead of angsty ones. hahaha :D oh and thanks to jon and calvin they have influenced me in the ways of r&b and hiphop - a little - as well. haha

okaaaayyyyy. now back to hoi they're starting to come up and give me looks. haha chow for now (:

later!

2007-05-06T00:16:00.000+10:00

all i can say
i shouldnt say

can we take a ride
get outta this place while we still have time
you wanna take a ride
get outta this place while we still have time
yeah, we still have time

it's so weird how sometimes educated people are the ones who sometimes act the most barbarically. thinking that because their heads are all puffed up with knowledge they know what's right and deem themselves superior than others, looking down on those not similar to them in certain ways. no, God made all man equal. no one's supposed to put himself/herself up on a pedestal just cos they know more in a certain area than another. so what if you're physically better? so what if you're more attractive? someone might be intellectually superior, someone else might be more socially adept. it's just so wrong to judge based on a certain criteria.

i miss mayberry
sitting on the porch drinking ice cold cherry, coke
when everything was black and white
picking on the sixth string
people pass by and you call them by their first name
watching the clouds roll by

"if you were in spore i'd probably go to your house very often just to sit around......when i finally get the freedom to go around whenever i want you're not here for me to go to......" i'd like that. i really would. but i guess He's got different plans. better plans? yeah, cos He always knows best. (: Jeremiah 29:11! anyway, God's so awesome(: even when i fail, He never stops loving me and picking me up.
our God is an awesome God
He reigns from heaven and earth
with wisdom power and love
our God is an awesome God
it's so easy to just fall prey to your thoughts, so easy to fall back into the ways of the evil one. but we got another choice, to live in victory in Christ. your mind is your battlefield. together with God against the devil. positive thoughts lead to a positive life. haha(:

Jesus, lover of my soul
Jesus, i will never let You go
You've taken me
from the miry clay
set my feet upon the Rock
now i know

i love You
i need You
though my world may fall
i'll never let You go
my Saviour
my Closest Friend
i will worship You
until the very end

studying in starbucks is very productive. haha audrey stayed at home today instead of going to starbucks with us and ended up not doing anything but eating "all kinds of instant shit" (quote from her hahaha) like mac&cheese, beef stroganoff with rice, kinder bueno, instant popcorn, instant mashed potatoes & i think a whole lot more. hahaha ah well
oh talking about potatoes -
thanks for the steak lunch jun wei (:
yumyum. :D
oh big noise ytd night was awesome fun! those who didnt go missed out man. haha and after that sher audrey and i treated ourselves to Dimattina's :D
going to the library tmr to start on HOI essay research :/ hope it's productive!

i miss my family. LOVE YOU PAPA MUMMY MEI BOY!
cant wait for 2 weeks more till some of them get here(:

my wish for you
is that this life
becomes all that you want it to
your dreams stay big
your worries stay small
you never need to carry more than you can hold
and while you're out there
getting where you're getting to
i hope you know somebody loves you
and wants the same things too
yeah this
is my wish

later!

2007-04-30T21:24:00.000+10:00

everyday i'll go Your way
Jesus lead me on
every step a step of faith
Jesus lead me on

thank You God, sanne and shiyou for not giving up on me and relentlessly persuading me to go for camp(:

every nation, every generation
we will seek Your face
and live for You always

for all You've done, and for all You're about to do, i thank You and i cant wait for more(:

haha when you say this kind of thing, you always gotta be prepared for it. cos when you say this kind of thing to God, He'll take it seriously and you'll find trials and testings thrown at you. then it's your choice whether to take it to Him or to just fall back into the way you used to deal with things.

haha audrey's playing auld lang sai (spelling?) in the background. reminds me of home and mg.. i miss you guys. but it's okay(:
hmm i guess the distance does play a big part in relationships, i mean undoubtedly it gets harder with an ocean or two separating two people instead of just a few roads. but if it's meant to be, it'll work out in the end yeah? yeahh..

anyway, this has been a very weird start of the term. but His mercies are new every morning(:

till i see You face to face
and grace amazing takes me home
i'll trust in You

later!

p.s. thanks for calling jake(: <3

2007-04-27T11:26:00.000+10:00

these are the moments
i thank God that im alive
these are the moments
i'll remember all m life
i've got all i've waited for
and i coult not ask for more

i could not ask for more than this time together
could not ask for more than this time with you
every prayer has been answered
every dream i've had's come true
right here in this moment
is where i wanna be
here with you
here with me

//

sorry for not blogging! things have been in quite a blur.. haha but anyway, here's sth interesting before i need to rush off again soon - try it yourself! ;)

You Are An INFJ

The Protector

You live your life with integrity, originality, vision, and creativity.
Independent and stubborn, you rarely stray from your vision - no matter what it is.
You are an excellent listener, with almost infinite patience.
You have complex, deep feelings, and you take great care to express them.

You would make a great photographer, alternative medicine guru, or teacher.

What's Your Personality Type?

haha

i love you
more than the sun and the stars
that i taught how to shine
you are mine
and you shine for me too
i love you
yesterday and today and tomorrow
i'll say it
again and again
i love you more

(:

off to camp i go!

later(:

2007-04-10T01:11:00.000+10:00

flashback
to warm nights
almost left behind
a suitcase of memories
time after some time

if you're lost you can look
and you will find me
time after time
if you fall i will catch you
i will be waiting
time after time

i guess that's what it's about.

haha random thought : my mum was telling me about emo kids the other day cos she rmbed me telling her that i like emo songs. anyway, apparently it's becoming a fad to be emo. how strange is that. and emo as in like.. slash yourself emo. which is not good! hence, i am not an emo kid. i am a senti kid. haha like sentimental. haha yes

just so you know
this feeling's taken control of me
and i cant help it

aiya anything la. im still here.
standing on the rooftops
everybody scream your heart out

okay

later!

2007-04-07T17:56:00.000+10:00

time flies!

im back in singapore alr (:
surprise surprise! :D hahaha that was fun.

from today it's only 2weeks more! so fasttt. but at least my days've been really full (: today i got my fill of drums in the music room(: ahh missed whacking the set man.

everyone's busy busy busyyy,
rush rush hustle bustle
'time held me green and dying\though i sang in my chains like the sea'

The cities grow the rivers flow
Where you are I'll never know
But I'm still here
If you were right and I was wrong
Why are you the one who's gone
And I'm still here

no matter!

one thing's for sure :

im glad to be home.

(:

later!

2007-04-01T00:51:00.000+10:00

aussie for dummies (not that any of you are dummies heh)

1) lemonade = sprite (to get actualy lemonade you have to ask for lemon squash)

2) ta = thank you

3) see you later = bye

4) no worries - alright, no problem, sure.. (actually it's pretty much all encompassing. haha this is very very much used)

5) thongs = slippers

6) happiness costs $10 (well not literally)

7) food and groceries costs Alot of money

8) aye = pardon (haha it sounds weird kinda)

9) weather here can change from cold to hot&sunny to cold again to rainy to hot again in the span of 3h

10) winds can get so strong that the sand or leaves that fly up cos of it can cut

11) it's possible to eat gelato everyday

12) transportation is 6times more expensive here than in singapore

13) education system here isnt as easy as everyone thinks it is

14) take away = to go (if you say anything else they wont get you)

15) it's true that if you dont stand for something, you'll fall for everything

:D

later!

2007-03-24T15:14:00.000+11:00

last night there was a blackout in half of melbourne
from melbourne central to grattan to elgin(where palmerston is) to i dunno where alr, except the hospitals.
SO SCARY!!
somemore last night was OCF and we only finished at like 0030. thank God for nice people with nice cars who sent us home(: after much deliberation we finally ended up at palmerston at about 0100. seriously, the WHOLE place was PITCH BLACK. and there were drunk people on the streets.. which made it all the more freaky.. but it wasnt all bad - blackouts can be fun(: minus the scary-ness of the whole groping in the dark thing. haha.
was quite an experience - the street lights were gone, the traffic lights didnt work, the fans and lights werent working(which was the most killer cos the weather was so freaking hot ytd) and whole streets were completely dark.
it's funny, the whole time through the blackout i wanted to call my family and certain friends so badly but couldnt cos 1) my stupid phonebill went thru the roof the last time 2) my phone had to batt . i guess it's times like this when you feel the distance most.. but once again, thank God for the people around - i guess it's like your friends are your family And friends once you're overseas.

okie doke, just a short update - gotta study now! exams in a week's time. AGH. okay it's not tthhhaaaatttt bad but.. there's drama! :/ we have to put on a 2min mime in front of the entire class! blehhh. IM SO NOT A DRAMA PERSON. there's a reason why whenever im on stage im always behind the drums... grumblegrumble.. have kind of got my concept i guess, but need to work on it somemore.. and there's lit! which is alright.. but it's different and i just hope i can write well according to this new criteria. and of course there's math - but it's not counted. it's not too bad now, at least i dont hate it so much anymore haha. but it's still quite unstructured. and the lecture theatre SUCKS - no ventillation AT ALL. sheeesh. oh and econs lecture has now changed to that place SHEEESH. it's in a chem building in the uni - and ytd we had to be evacuated cos there was sth gone wrong haha so funny. yeah then our lecturer walked out of class 10mins to end of lesson cos he was getting hell from some of the people. haha ah well

it's the weekend!! (: i love weekends. haha as a friend used to say "it's 3 days to the weekend!!", "it's 2 days to the weekend!!", "it's FRIDAY!! friday friday friday!" haha i get why now ;)

anyway, time to go!

see you guys soon ;D

later!
<33

2007-03-22T01:54:00.000+11:00

haha i was just re-reading old blog entries cos it was the first time i realised that we could and it's quite funny really. seriously, i was like the typical angsty teen. haha then after that i moved on to the 'WHY WHY WHY ME' which i guess is kinda angsty but searchy phase. haha then the get out of all that phase - THANKFULLY. haha ohmygosh plus all the 'mannz' & '*wheee*' hahahahaha ohmygoodness. okay enough of embarrassing myself haha

it's midweek and it'll be back to SINGAPORE soon!! (: SO EXCITING :D but things are pretty good here in melbourne too! like last saturday we went for like a worship team introduction for OCF and i tried out for drums and, cos they were short on electric guitarists, that too - which was SO FUN. haha it was so cool - the guy was darn pro! yes anyway, so we will be starting to serve soon! yeahh(: and ytd my cell leader asked me to play guitar for her during cell - today we practiced in one of the gardens in the uni campus; it was actually really nice! among nature and all that.. haha yeap. oh and tonight was shakers cell! good, as usual (: but im still deciding between 2 churches so yeah.. but shakers is definitely very very enticing. heh

alright just a short one, and i have to go now because i have a niner tmr AGH. haha but it's lit with mike so no worries ;)

hope everyone's alright in school and with life and all(: anything can always email me!
oh today i just reread one of my farewell letters and yeah it was very well put 'remember to email! so we'll still be emotionally together although geography distanced' or sth like that. haha yes (: take care all!

later<33

2007-03-19T22:15:00.000+11:00

Crab - Fleur Adcock

Late at night we wrench open a crab,
flesh bursts out of its cup

in pastel colours. The dark fronds attract me.
Poison, you say, Dead Men's Fingers -

don't put them in your mouth, stop!
They brush over my tongue, limp and mossy,

until you snatch them from me, as you snatch
yourself, gently, if i come too close.

Here are the permitted parts of the crab,
wholesome on their nests of lettuce

and we are safe again in words.
All day the kitchen smells of sea.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

that's a poem im doing for lit. haha been writing notes on it i guess it kinda just stuck on.. yeah, but it's nice and puts things so nicely into denoted words. haha okay anyway

time is strange.
even though it's supposed to be the only constant throughout the world - like a minute is a minute everywhere and a second is a second everywhere -
but then how can time fly by for one person, yet crawl past for another?
quite an interesting phenomenon, no?
hence i conclude that even time is subjective.
it seems like the days dont really fly by here, but they seem to..stroll past.
not saying that one is better than another, but it's just interesting - how even when things dont whoosh past, it's still hard to keep track of the days, hard to remember the details, just like before.
does it really even matter?

there's no combination of words
i could put on the back of a postcard
no song that i could sing
but i could try for your heart
our dreams
and they are made out of real things
like a shoebox of photographs
and sepia-toned loving

love is the answer
at least for most of the questions
in my heart, like
why we're here and where do we go
and how it's so hard
but it's not always easy
and sometimes life can be deceiving
i'll tell you one thing
it's always better when we're together

and all of these moments just might find their way
into my dreams tonight
but i know that they'll be gone
when the morning light sings and brings new things
but tomorrow night you see
that they'll be gone too, too many things i have to do
but if all of these dreams might find their way
into my day to day scene
i'd be under the impression
i was somewhere in between
with only two, just me and you
and so many things we got to do
or places we got to be
we'll sit beneath the mango tree, now

i believe in memories
they look so, so pretty when i sleep
and when i wake up
you look so pretty sleeping next to me
but there is
not enough time
there is no
no song i could sing
and there is no combination of words
i could say but i could still
tell you one thing
we're better together

mm it's always better when we're together
yeah we'll look at them stars when we're together
well it's always better when we're together
yeah it's always better when we're together

jack johnson (: current top5 fave songs!

yeap
take care

later

2007-03-18T00:42:00.000+11:00

www.dolce-dolly.blogspot.com

HAHA

that's all for now, will post more when i have time!

LATER(:

<3<3

2007-03-12T21:03:00.000+11:00

that is sarah! and it was her birthday last saturday! so we waited till mn friday night and surprised her! haha fun (: hope you had a fun night sarah:D

HAPPY SEVENTEENTH! (:

and that was wakeboarding on the saturday :D

ahh it was so super awesome!

went with reina who like went crazy. honestly.

quote "u hav no idea how hyper she was. she's been doing muted screaming when we were on our way there in the tram, it like she couldn't calm herself down. haha. once we reached the location, she's like a kid in a lollies shop."

hahahaha true story. anyway!

it was darn cooooolll!

they were doing all sorts of awesome tricks like air rallies and scarecrows and whirlies and all thattt! ahh so cool okay..

yeah so obviously i was clueless and like 'what's that' and such a noob - thank goodness for reina! she can do jumps! and butter..sth! haha i cant rmb the names. but so cool man. i want to learn. seriously. ahhhh!

anyway.. been sick with fever on and off for like. 5 days. so sucky. and annoying. i hate being sick! and over here you cant go to the doc unless you have continuous fever for like 2 days then by the time it was my third day it was the weekend. and today was labour day. so couldnt go! so only going tmrrrr! ljnfvlanalrugifhivuhalfjvnas. bleh. and there's this freaking swelling on my neck.

buttt of course there's always a silver lining.. in a way.. haha

so..

thank you

shiyou

for staying over and swabbing me with cold towels that night when my temp shot up and for being such a mom sometimes. haha (: for making me mac and cheese in the morning and offering to buy back lunch for me! for constantly checking up on me and my fluctuating temp(: for being such an awesome friend.

yihui audrey charis sher melchu minghuei reina and other palmerston ppl

for being so concerned and always checking up (: OH and for the yummy dinner on sunday! haha sorry i only provided drinks la. but i might burn the kitchen down otherwise.. which almost happened.. haha KIDDING. and for the brownies! and just being so nice (:

yeahh.. okay now i gtg bathe heh

later(:

2007-03-11T11:31:00.000+11:00

I don't wanna go another day
So I'm telling you, exactly what is on my mind
Seems like everybody's breaking up
And throwing their love away
But I know I got a good thing right here
That's why I say

I don't wanna go another day
So I'm telling you, exactly what is on my mind
See the way we ride, in our private lives
Ain't nobody gettin' in between
I want you to know that, you're the only one for me

So don't cha worry about
People hanging around
They ain't bringing us down
I know you, and you know me
And that's all that counts

Nobody gonna love me better, I must stick wit u forever
Nobody gonna take me higher, I must stick wit u
You know how to appreciate me, I must stick wit u, my baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way, I must stick wit u

haha pussycat dolls ain't half bad. :D

later!

2007-03-07T19:22:00.000+11:00

This may never start
We could fall apart
And I'd be your memory
Lost your sense of fear
Feelings insincere
Can I be your memory?

This may never start
I'll tear us apart
Can I be your enemy
Losing half a year
Waiting for you here
I'd be your anything

This may never start
Tearin' out my heart
I'd be your memory
Lost your sense of fear
Feelings disappear
Can I be your memory?

So get back, back, back to where we lasted
Just like I imagined
I could never feel this way
So get back, back, back to the disaster
My heart's beating faster
Holding on to feel the same

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school has officially started

it's quite draining i have no idea why

like today after class i came back and slept for 2h but i think that's still not enough

my nose is so stuffed and i feel gross - think i may be falling sick

or could be that every freaking person here smokes

okay not everyone, but enough to annoy me and irritate my nose

but anywayy

im really enjoying psych - my teacher's the coolest! but it's not as easy as it looks, quite a bit of reading up to do. but cant compare to the science students i suppose - they're so poor thing.. thank God i dont do any science anymore heh.

surprisingly im not enjoying maths that much. there's no structure! which makes it tough to learn and there are all sorts of weird new formulas that i never knew existed. plus my tutorial class is.. bleh. with the exception of audrey. thank goodness

lit's alright, i heard we might be doing kubla khan AHH. haha shit just cant seem to run away from that poem.

hoi hasnt really started much with anything yet, but i just realised how much it is lke TOK or KI. so pretty cool.

econs is pretty interesting - my teacher taught me before in summer school so i dont find her accent that intimidating(she's indian), oh haha and she's quite funny

my EAP(english for academic purposes) teacher's so.. eccentric. haha she has a stuffed owl who she introduces as her best, one and only friend. hahaha. oh dear.

the week seems to be crawling by..

aiya. at least it's all down hill from here!

will be trying out planetshaker's cell tmr after my grand plans to study at lygon's starbucks which is super nice(: yay okay not too bad! haha

hope you guys are okay and jae was alright.. take care yeah(:

see you all soon!

oh haha here are some random pics :D

at koko blacks! the ice chocolate is THE BEST. instead of ice, the put in vanilla And chocolate ice-cream along with the chocolate milk, and i think there's fudge also :D and our chocolate platter - truffles, mousse, ice cream, cookie, muffin, souffle (all choc based!) and johnny's triple scoop ice cream delight thingy haha

my breakfast on sunday! banana nutella crepe and cappucino :D darn sweet. haha

they have a huge periodic table on the wall in the chem building. haha thought it was interesting.

yeap that's about it!

love you guys - have fun wherever and whatever(:

2007-03-01T13:06:00.000+11:00

helloooo(:

it's still really relaxed now - i think the first term will pretty much be like that :D hehe just the way i like it! been having intro lects though so still gotta wake up for school.. omgosh math 1 is seriously boring. we've learnt everything before in sec school so we're only learning new stuff in the 4th term. for the first lesson i was so bored and sleepy, plus i didnt bring my notes, so i decided to listen to my ipod. haha i've become quite good at hiding it. but then it was so troublesome i settled for reading "My Sister's Keeper" instead - jodie picoult is such a prolific writer. the issues she touches on are really.. very grey.
anyway! oh im looking forward to psych and lit lessons! after the lit taining we've had in mg, the first term's gonna be quite enjoyable! (: but term2's a diff story.. psych is darn fun - i cant wait to start learning proper! my teacher's a clinical psychologist as well as a research psychologist(she's doing anorexia and eating disorders - i think if i had to i'd choose suicide or depression) and she studied for freaking 15years! but she has a doctorade but still wowwww.

taking it easy everyday is something quite different from the hustle bustle of singapore - life
here is indeed rather slow-paced, but it's fine (: i like just spending lazy afternoons reading or going to the park in the evenings.. plus, i've bought quite a number of dvds alr, & there're ppl all around, so not really much time to be bored!

okay anyway here are some pics of my room now here! my webcam cant work ): ytd i tried skyping with my sis but my stupid comp kept restarting by itself after 5mins sheeeesh.

this is what you see when you first walk in thru the door - my bed & bedside table, and there's the window next to it

pic1 is if you turn right - it's my study area and the other part of the window

*li see your pres by my window? ;)

pic2 is if you turn left - my walk in closet, BEANBAG(!! :D), adjoining toilet door & shelf

that's my lovely table and shelf next to my table (from pic1 above) ((:

*li mu and dee see the file? im gonna start using soon :D

*char i bought 'The Fray' cd!

*i love my board((:

HAHA EL NINO. ;)

this is a very strange phrase. it's the name of a song, the name of an atmospheric occurance, the name of a bar(i think).

MG girls dinner! (: we had some silly 'skills and expectations of studying in australia' talk on monday and after that we walked around lygon being retarded and at FIVETHIRTY sher keeps saying she is very hungry, so dinner at Toto's! fun(: ahhahaha charis smacked a handful of pepper into audrey's nose so throughout the entire dinner poor audrey kept stuffing wet pieces of tissue up her nose to soothe it HAHA. after dinner had ice cream along lygon - there're like 5936128047 ice cream shops along lygon! then a few of us went to carlton gardens to hang out and enjoy the night air(: the picture's blurry cos it was about 8 and i didnt wanna put night mode cos then can see the sunlight behind among the trees(:

beautiful scenery (: at a basketball court at doncaster east where lydia claudia nigel and i were blading - they're so adorable. uncle yc and aunty sharon invited me over for dinner cos they had my beanbag for me! so nice(: haha she cooked hainanese chicken rice, singapore style ;) hehe. blading in the night is really nice. sun doesnt set till about 830 or 9 and it's really nice and cool, yeahhh(:

now random pictures...

HAHAHA MURIEL'S WEDDING. :D

hehe DEBBIE FASHION DOLL :D

hahaha emo/angsty emily strange.. eh char? hehe

TIGER LILY CAFE - hehe :D

okay gotta run! laundry calls!

later (:

2007-02-25T00:23:00.000+11:00

so the week is nearly over! next week will be the last week of official slacking - then school starts for real on the 5th of march. MARCH. sheesh. why in the world did they make us come on the 15th of FEBRUARY for. ah well. not to say that it's been a total waste though.. it's been pretty fun (: just slowly getting better - i mean where else can you go but up when you hit rock bottom. not that i hit rock bottom but ahh you get what i mean.

so mummy's been gone since wed - feels like much longer though. been staying in palmerston since monday night; weather's growing colder! yeahhh! (: toady it rained haha thank God it stopped after awhile. so anywayy here are some pics!

this is when mummy was still around - we visited some houses that were SO PRETTYYY(: they had the woody smell and everything! see see

that's one of the bedrooms - there's a like bbqing place outside and a nice round table for chillaxing(: the bedroom itself is really relaxing and prettyyy yeah? :D

oh this is cool! it's like a little outhouse kind of thing - haha can imagine what it could be used for ;D hehe

and these are pics of Carlton Gardens (: awesome place to just chill out with a book.. further up there are swings! the grass is really nice to just sit on and spend a lazy afternoon.. haha i feel like im doing some sort of advertisement. ahaha

check out this ginormous plate of spaghetti carbonara - it's actually a hunk of pasta and cheese. haha amazing how ONE aussie can finish this right. this was shared among 3 asian adults haha

that's body boarding on cny! haha portsea beach, and im one of the small figures there, lydia nigel shiyou and me, rock pools(so cool right?)!

this is after mummy left - ytd we had an excursion to Ashcombe Maze. pretty cool; the mazes are fun and confusing. was being sociable with yihui that day - our group gor first! hahaha. anywayy.. haha yeah lovely scenery that place (:

at mornington beach, quite near portsea! that's me and justine and the sailboats - one of their names are 'hasta la vista' hahaha. and MG girls who are in buninyong! haha yes that's the group names. nice view(:

today was the our trip to Warook Cattle Farm! we made our own bread - cant rmb what it's called but you can see it on davinya and my sticks; yes sticks! we had to flour our stick up, then stick the dough onto it and like roast it over a campfire. haha good stuff, but we came back smelling really burnt. haha after that the activities began! fed goats, cows(kelly i was the first to milk the cow hehe!), kangaroos, watched sheep herding and shearing and yeah cool farm stuff(: haha mei the geese are for you! quite harmless :D

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yeap! so it's pretty much alright(:

oh we had worship tonight.. hopefully there'll be more to come and by faith the numbers will increase! haha(:

it was really a good time.. and then afterwards, being mg girls we did what we do best - we chillaxed in my room. heh. funn(: they almost wanted to bunk in but decided not to cos they'd have to sleep on the floor haha. anyway i wanna go cook cup noodles now im hungry. heh

later

2007-02-21T01:35:00.000+11:00

approximately 6weeks more till i get to go HOME.

what do i miss?
family
friends
hugs for no reason at all
cam-whoring just cos YOU CAN
being able to talk about anything
comfortable silences
knowing what's going on in people's lives
conversation over meals that do not involve where i live, what my bank is, where im studying...
knowing where im going
long message rallies
phone calls without having to worry about the bill
my room
not having to worry about the stupid laundry, where to go and how to go there, the bills...
being a kid.

you begin to wonder why you came

no school on wed and thurs. excursions on fri and sat. since there's so much free time, gonna explore somemore, or try to.. weather's getting a little better, not so hot now and more wind. but currently, australia is the driest inhabited continent/country! we were originally supposed to have a camp, but because the bushfires occured right at our camp site, camp was cancelled! so it's just the excursions. to ashcombe maze and warook cattle farm. haha righttt..

sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same

but on a better note.. i went body-boarding on sunday! after checking out Life Expedition church at arrow. wait digress awhile- their worship was awesome, like technically practically flawless. and spiritually, refreshing and God's presence was there(: their pastor's really young man. okay back to body-boarding. we took a 1.5h drive to portsea beach! it was so awesomeeee. you have to go out to sea, and wait for the wave to break right behind you, then you gotta jump on just at the right time onto the wave and wait for it to carry you all the way to shore at a crazy speed! haha damn fun((: i caught a few good waves but jumped a few cos they werent that strong.. and the rest i was figuring it out haha. there're these really cool rock pools too- will try to post pictures next time! really beautiful(: yeahh..

another summer day has come and gone away
in paris and rome
but i wanna go home
may be surrounded by
a million people
i still feel all alone
just wanna go home
oh i miss you, you know

another aeroplane
another sunny place
im lucky i know
but i wanna go home
i got to go home

let me go home

im just too far
from where you are
i wanna come home

44days and counting.

later

2007-02-16T15:08:00.000+11:00

hellooooo

so it's my second day in school!
it's still kinda surreal. i dont know. like- hasnt really sunk in that im here in melbourne. it's gonna be my like.. 'home' for the next 4 years? in that sense i suppose. i guess it'll only really hit me when mummy finally goes back to singapore.. at least this year i get to go back 4 times. but it's so little!! i can't wait for april alr. bleh.
anywayyy..
so first day of school(ytd) was pretty alright- everyone's really friendly! there are about 15++ different nationalities here.. from china, kenya, egypt, bangledesh, indonesia... yeah so it's pretty cool. they gave us a tour around campus- it's HUGE. extends for like 4 streets. i think. haha and in the middle is lygon street! which is the awesome food district. famous for it's italian(: and the city's not too far off, so it's all pretty near. except grace and selene are a 40min drive awayyy.. so i wont be going to visit them on my own. the weather here's FREEEAAKING HOT. seriously. even the shade's not cool anymore.. but it's drier so i dont get as sticky thank goodness. heh. but i have a sunburn alr! really. my cheeks are red. haha ah well

school's pretty slack. socially it's alright. everyone's just saying hi to everyone else it's quite fun(: no pressure, you know? just taking it easy(: academically i think im gonna be having quite a bit of fun! today we had our intro lects- psychology sounds super cool! the lecturer's funny haha(: and there are 14 ppl in my lecture who wanted to become psychologist- including me cos i raised my hand. i dont know, either commerce or psychology. or i could always take a double degree. but nvm i shall think about that at the end of the year.

today we hung out at minghuei melchu & amandaleong's house with shiyou & justin- had milo [:D] and watched FRIENDS! haha the weather was so bad we decided not to go for lects after lunch anymore. now im borrowing shiyou's laptop (thankyou:D) for connnection cos im still staying with my mum in the hotel haha it's really too hot to sleep without aircon. i wish autumn would come earlier. it's so stuffy everywhere and there's not really any aircon anywhere. now i know why they're let off in the summer. suffocating!

separation has it's faults
i dont wanna leave it all
so write the letters in teary ink
i just need some time to think
and i just need some time to breathe

baby just say goodnight
i'll be gone tomorrow
baby just close your eyes
i cant take the sorrow
baby just walk away
you know i cant stay
there's no easy way to say goodbye
so baby just say goodnight

happy belated valentines day everyone(:

love you guys.
miss you all tons and tons..
take care yeah? (:

all my love,

later

2007-02-07T13:23:00.000+11:00

i'd give up anything to make this last forever
but i gotta face reality
forever never lasts forever
give it all if that would mean we'd be together
cos i cant imagine life without you

-

why cant we learn to love in more than just way
why should it be so weird for me to call you up to say
hello
are you really satisfied about the changes everytime we meet
cos im not

but if that's the way you wanna be
i guess i will concede
cos loving you means everything to me
if i have to act like i dont know you
for you to be at peace with me
it's okay
but i'll love you anyway

-

cos i need some help to make this right
i cant hold on for too long
the more i try the more i slip away

-

if i could you know i would
try my best to turn back time
build a time machine
go back to where we started out
it just seemed to pass so fast
i cant hold on for too long
i need you right here with me
'stead of just the memories i keep

-

thank you debbie(: hope you dont mind yeah.. heh

later

2007-02-06T02:10:00.000+11:00

Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it’s just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came

so it's only a week more. okay im not counting down. but it's just. obvious. and. very prominent in my head. agh.. it's not that im scared. or worried. actually i have no idea what im feeling, really. i think it's just. resistance to change. bleh..
there's never a right time to say goodbye
okay nvm. anyway. it's not supposed to be so draining is it? i dont know. sometimes people make bad decisions in life. give them a break? cut them some slack? dont think so. society's harsh. unforgiving. once hurt twice shy.. just a silly game. so tired.. why's it so weird? like a rollercoaster ride.

no please don't complicate, our time is short
this is our fate, im yours

okay cannot be emo. let's thank God for the many blessings He's given me!

1) thank You Lord for the people you put in my life. all of them! (: for the love & care they've showered on me and just for the fact that they've impacted my life in their own ways.

2) thank You for my family. 'nuff said(:

3) thank You for the actually giving me the opportunity to go over

4) thank You for the good times past, and the more to come as You've promised!

5) thank You for just being there for me, for being so faithful and for loving me despite everything.

God's promises never fail. (:

later